even when i’m doing fine and i’m happy i get the urge to think about my intrusive thoughts, it almost feels like a habit or that i have to think abt them. i’m scared that i like them and that’s why i do that

also scared that i’m fantasizing about them even though i don’t want them

I feel the same way at times. But it will change in the long run.

Yes, I feel that way as well. It’s tiring for my mental health. Every day I think about my intrusive thoughts and I can’t even go a few seconds without having the thoughts or feelings. It’s annoying.