Trigger warning I have scrupulousity and often when I actually am trying to pray for forgiveness I find myself thinking that I’m not being genuine. Sometimes I find myself doing compulsions and having intrusive thoughts while praying but I also feel like sometimes I pray more as a compulsion than rather a genuine prayer seeking God’s forgiveness.

Been having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God. Then sometimes I’m really struggling and I feel resentful, sometimes even towards God, which I know is not right, I want to have reverence. But it feels like sometimes I think the blasphemous thoughts on purpose because of my anger. I don’t know if this is an OCD issue or an issue of my heart or both. But yeah I don’t know what to do.

Hey, So whenever I pray, often I will end up not feeling genuine when I pray and I don’t feel God when I pray and then I panic and end up basically trying to force my emotions to “feel right” and I repeat my words over and over and over again. It’s so frustrating and I want to stop but it’s hard. Does anyone have any tips on breaking this?

I have a new compulsion where I hit my head over and over again to get really bad thoughts out of my head and I'm getting headaches from them now. It feels impossible to stop 😥 I just became a Christian and I get inappropriate very taboo awful thoughts about God and Idk how to treat them because with my other OCD themes I used to do what my therapist calls opposite action where you act like the thoughts aren't powerful so if you get an intrusive thoughts you would basically say meh, maybe I am maybe I'm not or maybe it will maybe it won't, but with scrupulosity Ocd I don't want to have a nonchalant attitude towards the inappropriate sinful thoughts about God because I don't want God to think I don't care that a horrible thought like that was in my head. So I've started hitting my head. I just don't want God to hate me and I feel ashamed of these thoughts. They make me feel ashamed of myself.