My worst fears are coming true Trigger warning. Please don’t read if you get triggered by talk of sexuality and relationships. I cant do this. I really can’t. I’ve been doing exercises after exercises and now I’m just here feeling nothing for someone I thought I felt everything for. I hate this illness. I hate it with every fiber of my being. She’s being romantic to me over text and I feel nothing. Except for panic, because I feel nothing. I hate this so much. Was it seriously all fake? If so, I don’t think I can go on. I really don’t.