- Username
- Emilyycc
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I’m so sad I cry everyday I hate bad people I don’t like them I cringe when I think about bad things I hate this I prayed to god today I felt a bit better and then it all came back I meet with my therapist tomorrow I really need help if anyone could talk to me about harm ocd and false memories and how they are slowly getting over it and recovering please. These thoughts feel so real I never want to do them , god please let me know if this is a false memory sometimes I don’t even want a brain I know that sounds stupid and I wouldn’t be alive right now without it but it’s so hard no one understand I feel like I have the worse case of ocd I don’t know how I’m still dealing with this. It’s so hard for me . Sometimes I wish I would just get a really bad concussion then I wouldn’t remember anything and start over with everything .
i dont have harm ocd but i feel the same way with pocd. it’s the absolute fucken worst😞 how long have you been dealing with ocd?:(
I think I’ve had it ever since I was little first I would straighten everything out and then it went away and the in grade 12 well when I graduated I had cheating ocd what if I cheated on my boyfriend? Then when I heard about Jeffrey Epstein I thought ONG what if I did something bad to a kid like that then it moved to omg did you kill someone I’ve delt with almost all the worst ones .
Hello when I started having ocd when I was about 9 I started having very bad th9ughts and images if hurting myself my family even my animals 😢 it was heart breaking 💔 thankfully after awhile I do not have those thoughts anymore. I do have other thoughts but they re not as strong I would say just don't ruminate with the thoughts try and live out your day like they are not even there I am here for support
Me too.
I don’t want to do evil things to people i love why do i even have these thoughts and images of me doing these things why is my brain this way… my heart feels broken because i love the people i have these thoughts about its not even me its like a Demond in my brain it doesn’t shut the f*** up. I just want to have peaceful loving thoughts… this is distressing. Anyone else going through this?
Just had a huge spiral. I don’t know how it got started but I started having intrusive images really bad and maybe it’s because I was ruminating worrying that I brought it up so then it got to where every object I looked at an image popped into my head of me harming a child. And then I was literally looking down at my bed laying on my stomach so I wasn’t looking at anything, and I was so scared and nervous I was trying to think of the at wouldn’t trigger an image but accidentally kept thinking about random objects and then more images kept popping up and I feel so guilty and disgusting because I feel like it was definitely my fault. I DONT WANT THIS. And it hurts so much because I get no amusement or enjoyment or arousal from these images. I literally feel nothing for children. This didn’t start happening until a few weeks ago and I don’t have any idea why but it’s SO graphic and violent I feel like my morals have left me. I feel like someone who cares wouldn’t be eating, being around family, hopeful. I don’t want to do but I couldn’t live as a p. I can’t live with the images forever it’s so much to deal with I feel so guilty for living. I used to want to be a mom one day, not to play off of anyone’s emotions I feel like I am, but I’m 21 I had period issues didn’t have my period for a year and was really upset at times because I thought I wouldn’t get to be a mom one day. And now this is happening and it’s just vile and scary and it’s so confusing to me. I don’t understand.
Everyday i have unwanted thoughts and images in my head of me harming my loved ones in horrible ways, also urges too. i’m not like that at all, i don’t want to be like that at all and i also have an extreme fear of becoming a bad person and harming the people i love, or snapping out of anger and harming people. These thoughts scare me a lot and im really sad that i have these thoughts at all and its taking a toll on my mental health. whenever i see something like a gun or a knife or something like that i get anxious and scared at the thought that i could hurt someone with those things and i get thought about me in a position where i hurt someone. the last thing i want is to hurt anyone. i just wanna make people happy and i wanna treat others with kindness. i don’t want to do any of that i don’t wanna be a bad person. i hate these thoughts in my head and im so anxious at the thought that im gonna commit them. can someone help me and give me some advice on what to do?
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