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Yes and feeling the normal touches is gonna trigger your hocd and fool you in thunking you like those touches and you are actually attracted
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Mine did this too, and it was so stupid. And I worked with her, just hangout with her and push through, mine is completely gone regarding the person! You got this, use mindfulness
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Have you dealt with fear of being touched from your female friends and how did you get through?
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@Ljc101010 Recognized it was all aneixty driven, literally. I didn’t care prior to my OCD flare up, and as it went on and I worked through erp and my ocd the aniexty went down and feelings decreased.
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What things to do when you feel uncomfortable around friends should i push myself to bear the uncomfortablity ?
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@Riddled thanks!
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@Ljc101010 Sat with it! Hung out as long as I could, and then when I was overwhelmed to much, I would cry, I would give myself a moment and then I told OCD to fuck off. It’s all anxiety. Now my ocd has latched on to the words denial and that I need to come out. Which is super annoying but I try to remember anything pertaining to my theme I need to say meh too. So I’ve started doing alarms that say those words!
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@Ljc101010 Have you experienced any thoughts that were more demanding then what’s ifs? Haha it’s the worst. 😭
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@Riddled I experienced alot of what if from different triggers that trigger my HOCD i even get triggered about different types of ocd at rhe same time which makes me paranoid😂🙆🏻♀️
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@Riddled I’ve been ocd patient for almost a year and I kinda lget used to how uncomfortable it feels! It sucks
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@Ljc101010 Ugh I feel alone in the department that mine don’t always begin with what if or they do and then the intrusive thoughts after are more demanding if that makes sense
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@Ljc101010 I’ve been a patient sense September so been doing erp for 5 months now.
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@Riddled It’s the confusion that makes things shit i guess as long as you keep believing your inner guts and knowing fhat this it isn’t the thing you want to in real life then keep fighting i know it’s hard it’s gonna end someday
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@Riddled It’s good you are doing erp ,i hooe uou are doing it with a therapist instruction so he can help you along the way! I am fighting ocd without treatment so i fear so many things but thank god i try to collect myself and alaays get over if
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@Ljc101010 Yes I use NOCD! Still hard tho
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@Riddled At first the erp is very difficult then it becomes easier step by step
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@Riddled I hope you get better!❤️
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@Ljc101010 Have you ever experienced thoughts of “you know your in denial” and things like that?? Not trying to trigger you, my ocd is just stuck on are my ocd thoughts normal 😂 And thank you I hope the same for you!
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@Riddled Not exactly like that but a fear of being in denial is def a thing yes!
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@Riddled But i have always liked boys and I always want to be with one it just came out of no where literally
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@Ljc101010 Prob me over here obsessing over if my OCD thoughts are too much to be OCD 😂😭
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@Ljc101010 Same here, I got married had ROCD and then it turned into this.
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@Riddled ROCD and Hocd seems to be linked somehow they always come together most of the time i believe
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@Riddled Break the cycle and do anything else rather than keep thinking abt it
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@Ljc101010 So true! Thank you!
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@Riddled I sometimes think that maybe i want to and it’s just because my religion and that’s not true my ocd wants any hint to make me believe that it is true
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@Ljc101010 I’m not even super religious for me, I basically identify as pan sexual, and my brain is like that’s an excuse to not be gay, because I had “im gay” stuck on repeat in my head for days from like sun up to sun down…. All because I was “confessing” to my husband things and I was like “what if I’m in denial and haven’t been the best wife because I was confused about my sexuality for a sec when I went through puberty” and then from there spiraled but for me, I’m like of course girls are beautiful but I’m only attracted to men romantically… and my ocd is like excuses! And I’m like but no really! And it’s like lies! Hahaha When all in all most females literally think the exact same way.
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@Riddled It tries to pop up excuses for you not being gay is a myth and that’s what you wanna actually be and bla bla blaaa
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@Riddled Just live a happy life with your husband💗
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@Ljc101010 Exactly haha, the cycle of this wrath is endless
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I have the same. I just tell myself its OCD and using her as part of my ERP instead of avoiding the person. I know its scary and it give me a lot of anxiety.
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I worry that if I do the ERP involving my best friend I’ll “discover” my “true” feelings and it’ll all just go downhill from there 🥲
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@fifurn Im also afraid of the same. Somedays I cant even go in to instagram bc Im afraid she Will post something and that trigger me. I tell myself If I was really into someone, I wouldnt have so much anxiety about it. Do you have any therapist that can guide you through ERP?
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Suckss!
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I haven’t posted on here in a few days because I was feeling better but the past two days I’ve climbed my way back down the rabbit hole it seems. There’s this guy that I’m interested in and he seems to be interested in me. He keeps calling me pretty and how he’d like to meet me (he’s friends with my friends but I haven’t met him properly yet lmao) But I keep getting thoughts like “you’re not interested, you like women” and so on. I was feeling giddy about the whole thing up until two days ago where everything just seemed to shut off like my attraction, excitement and so on. I can’t believe I’m going through this again and I’m really trying to accept the thoughts but it’s so debilitating as I really want a bf but my brain keeps passing through thoughts that I do not want at all. Does anyone relate? Or have any coping strategies to help?
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I’ve posted this under a comment before, but if anyone has the time to read it and maybe share their experience or tips with me, I would really appreciate it. This is just kind of the reason why Idk if I only have OCD or if I should get checked for BPD aswell as emotional dependency is (as far as I know) not a common symptom of OCD and neither are excessive changes in emotions/moods. I think the worst part my situation is that one of my biggest and most damaging if not destructive obsessions I developed earlier this year was this constant fear that my friend would lie to me about meeting up with a boy she liked (we are both girls and queer, she didn’t know that about me until recently, but I’ve known that she is and we both sort of crushed on each other). Not just lie, but do it behind my back, keep it a secret, and then maybe even end our friendship without saying anything. And the thing is... that basically happened. Two weeks ago she started acting strange one day out of nowhere, and then I found out (through another friend) that he was coming over to her place. We had already talked about this before, I had cried in front of her and confessed how much it hurt me. I know doing that probably wasn’t the healthiest thing, but my emotions completely overwhelmed me in that moment. And even though nothing physical happened between them, it still felt like a betrayal. I’m not saying it was cheating, obviously not, we’re not in a relationship and it is unfair of me to try and tell her who or not to date, but it still hurts. Especially as weeks ago, we already had a detailed conversation about this. She told me she didn’t actually like him that much, and that if they were going to meet again, she’d be honest with me about it. But instead of being honest that day, she said nothing. Worse, she suddenly stopped talking to me, which made me think I had done something wrong so I completely lost my mind. She knows I’m emotionally dependent on her to some extent, so when she goes cold or distant, I spiral. And that day, I saw them talking and going quiet as I walked by, and then she literally turned to walk into a different direction. I don’t know why but it just crushed me. I thought she was mad at me, and I just felt like I was being shut out and lied to. And as I’ve mentioned, later that day, after eight hours of crying, another friend told me what really happened. She even drove me to her place so we could talk. We did talk, but since then, we haven’t had any contact. And it’s driving me absolutely insane. She told me it would be “people-pleasing” if she didn’t try to date him. And I know she’s kind of right, but she still lied to me. She didn’t care if that meant that she would throw away our friendship, or at least she treated it like it was worth less than a potential (!) relationship with a guy who, as far as I know, didn’t even respond when she told him she had feelings for him. It’s honestly devastating. I feel betrayed, discarded, and totally lost and I know I can’t even logically be mad at her as the reason she didn’t tell me is obvious and as a good friend I should just be happy for her, but my emotional side is so much stronger than my logic.
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I need advice. I’ve had OCD in different forms since I was eight. I’ve been with my boyfriend for two years now. He has always been subtly anxious and jealous. He would say things like, “I find everyone but you ugly” or “I could never find anyone else attractive.” That stressed me out morally, especially since it’s our first relationship and I, of course, want to be good enough for him. It started around the three-month mark of our relationship. Now to the problem: When I see someone who is attractive or cute, it already begins. I start thinking—or rather, I don’t just think, I feel. I genuinely and naturally feel these emotions, like I find that person attractive, like I like them, like I want them. I even feel infatuated, like I want to be with them, spend time with them, be their partner, even sexual scenarios or feelings like I love them. These emotions feel so natural and real that I can’t tell the difference. With one person, I’ve had these feelings for over a year. But I only know most of these people by sight. It could be that I’ve fallen in love with the idea of them. That’s a big issue for me. It completely goes against my moral values. I don’t want this. For me, it would be terrible to have a crush on someone else, to like someone else, or to fall in love with another person. Or worse, to love someone else. Because I do love my partner, and I want a future with him. And I know the relationship wouldn’t survive if my fears came true. Even if he always tells me, ‘No, I wouldn’t break up with you,’ I couldn’t live with it myself. And the thing is, it’s not even such an unrealistic fear. It’s not like I’m afraid I want to kill someone or that I have feelings like that. No, this topic I’m dealing with involves real people. There are many people who suddenly fall for someone else, who develop a crush or even fall in love with another person. And I can’t reconcile that with myself. A year ago, I saw someone, and it hit me like a shock (I think in a negative way). Yes, he is attractive or cute. But in that moment, I felt so much fear, panic, and adrenaline because I felt and thought that I liked him more than my partner. When that happens, I start testing my feelings again. And of course, I feel exactly what I’m afraid of. I then constantly feel this pressure or burden, along with guilt. When I think about a scenario, or imagine the person, those feelings come immediately—followed by fear, panic, and guilt. Because of that, I avoid certain places, things, or even numbers because I’m afraid of being triggered. By now, I’m convinced these are my true feelings, because I just can’t imagine that OCD could produce such emotions, and for such a long time—sometimes over a year. I simply don’t want this. I just feel awful, like a monster. What should I do?
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