Omg the last week has been one of the worst ever... As I have posted here few days ago, I am waiting my period and I am bombardised by horrible intrusive thoughts. My Rocd seems more threatening than ever and I can't get out of it. I get these thoughts and then I have to do many compulsions to go on in my day. I made some serious scenes to my husband, I doubted, agonised and cried like a small kid. I can't describe how bad I feel, how sick and low trapped in this never ending illness. I really couldn't resist the compulsions no matter if I thought I made the smallest progress. I feel a monster that makes my husband's life misery and cause fights inside my home with my small baby being present. Why do these thoughts seem so real??? They tell me Iul must believe in them, and cannot get out of it. My mind wants me to live in sadness, doubt and misery. I feel so losty friends like I want to hide in a cave and never get out... I feel like there's trauma inside my soul that wakes up through rocd thoughts...

Redyroo

Date posted: 3y

I do think it’s trauma, question is, what cause you to fear losing him so much?

zoed

Date posted: 3y

The last few years I had family difficulties and to make it short I realised my parents never loved and accepted me for myself but for their personal reasons and benefits. I know it sounds cruel but unfortunately it is true. Since that, I met my husband and I find it extremely difficult to trust anyone when my own parents betrayed and disappointed me. I always thought I was protected in a way and now I feel really lonely not being able to fully trust. This is the deepest trauma I believe I have

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