- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
OCDt would totally be a trigger for me too. When us peeps with ROCD hear or read anything about breaking up or separating, it sends us into a tailspin, which to me means, they have or had their own set of relationship problems in the past themselves. But honeslty, I can't see where a relationship can cause OCD, rather the anxiety of ROCD is making a relationship problem. Jeez , did that make any sense at all?
No I’m pretty sure I got you. I’m in agreeance with you, I think past relationship trauma is somthing a lot of rocd peoples have in common. I’m slowly seeing more and more how the ocd is like a protector of some sorts, a really messed up protector, but because we are compulsing… we prove to it that it has somthing it needs to watch out for or protect.
@verog h, yeah, it was allotbif mishmash going on there on my observance. Lol. Sorry. I totally agree, bad relationship here too, cause a plethora issues with me, that have carried over into my marriage. It's taking me 38 years to start knocking the bricks down one by one. Our first 34 years of marriage as been most of a blur, even tho thru all that blurred life, I wanted to be with him.
I've had OCD since I was like 8-9, I doubt it's because I have an underlying social constructed issue. Everyone can have a say in what OCD is or not, doctors or not, u make it your own explanation in the end. If it's an explanation that provokes anxiety, maybe it's not the right answer.
Yes maybe maybe ahah, always need to keep saying maybe maybe not. Maybe the doctor is right maybe he is not. I too am the same, have had ocd for ever since I can remember.
@verog does anyone truly know the causes tho? like lowkey i wanna know why we fkd up like this?
@nothavingagoodtime Some people say genetics, I personally think trauma of some sorts causes it. But yeah it’s a bit unfair like we got to deal with this for the rest of our lives and we don’t even get straight answers on why we have this in the first place lmao, didn’t sign up for this crap.
I developed OCD at age 7 and I'm now 24. What was the underlying problem that existed at 7 that STILL exists at 24? I call bs
Honestly looking at it this way im thinking that for some people with multiple themes that have been suffering since child hood there is no present underlying cause, but for this doctor who has treated one theme oriented people finding this underlying problem has been helpful in peoples recovery, but idk. Not to be rude but most therpists or Drs that do not specialize in ocd sound stupid when they try to explain ocd.
Ohhh I didn't know
Mine was actually caused by the antidepressant Wellbutrin.
How would that happen. I thought Wellbutrin helped with OCD? Idk ?
@jemcu812 Wellbutrin is mainly used to treat depression and I was prescribed it for my anxiety since my psychiatrist thought a dopamine receptor would be better for me. However, after two weeks of being on the medication I developed severe depression and OCD from it that now has yet to go away even after being off of it for almost a year now. If you do some research you will find many stories a lot like mine!
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
I feel like my Rocd has become more sophisticated. It’s made me feel as if my healthy loving boyfriend is this terrible person. Or I’ll be thinking to myself like “I love him”, and in middle thought I get “no you don’t”. It’s convinced me that our values and beliefs are just TOO different (we’ve only disagreed on one thing in our relationship, but we talk it out). It’s like my ocd is clinging on to every reason why I should break up, like I don’t want this anymore, even tho I do! It’s frustrating. And the idea of doing erp terrifies me. Because I’m afraid if I do erp statements, that I’ll agree with them. Can someone give insight
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