Last few weeks have been pretty shit and has been making me nervous af. I live in Canada so yk Y. I want to get back to my old life before covid. I graduated highschool without being able to go to prom and I had to wait 7 months for my diploma. I didn't get a grad either. All of that was robbed by covid and the ridiculous things in place by our government. Covid also showed me that I wasn't your regular Dude. I realized that something was wrong up top, and that no one I knew thought the things I thought or even understood what I was talking about. I had to talk to psychiatrist and here I am. Besides all of that, like I said the last 2 weeks have been bad and I haven't been able to leave my house. I just haven't had the energy nor time. None of my friends have been calling me to see what's up. It's like none of them give a shit.

That is probably the nicest thing I've ever read... and you're right. I guess I don't need them. I don't need to impress them, I don't have to worry about them. And yea I guess all I really need is myself. For me... I don't like people either. But I also want to socialize and do everything they do. And I guess I just want people to know I exist. I want everyone to know me for good reasons too. I try to help people and bring smiles to their faces. The most difficult part is though, I've been my own company my whole life. I have had friends here or there.... the reason behind that is everyone thinks I'm just an annoying, awkward, weirdo. And the friends I have now have been around for a while. But I still feel so isolated. Weither or not I'm around them. And For the last 2 years it feels like I have no choice but to be my own company. I've been trying to make myself a better person too. And it has worked. But there's still such a long way to go. Anyways... enough of my ramble lol. I want to thank you for that comment. It means so much to me. And the fact that there's someone out there that's kind of like me... blows my mind and gives me a little hope lol.

@rmono I'm still going to thank you lol. 😁 It makes me super happy that someone sees me like that. And right now I'm actually hanging out with my friends. I finally got myself out of my room after 2 weeks. I don't know what else to say. I guess I just have to be grateful for what I have in myself and with others. I'm grateful for you being able to understand. 🙏😁

@rmono I'm going to continue to better myself and help others. Because that's what I know how to do best. I hope you're doing well also.

@rmono Will do 😅