Intrusive thoughts of looking up guys doing explicit things and it’s making me feel like I’m going to do it when I dont want to... 😞😞😞

Stop looking it up then. Porn is designed to be enticing. To be addictive. It won’t make the ocd any better. Worse in fact. So what, men are attractive. All men notice attractive men. I don’t care if they say they don’t. They do. They just don’t remember it because it’s no big deal to them. Hocd says holy crap. You just saw that attractive guy. Anyways. Stop looking at men do things. It will make it all worse.

I think sitting with uncomfortable thoughts and uncertainty is what is helpful in these situations, which is very hard to do Sending support to you, this is a difficult journey

So I did ERP with a professional for sexually intrusive thoughts were I was to view still images of pornography to intentionally make me uncomfortable and directly expose myself to the trigger. You should talk to a specialist and work through ERP with a professional. They’ll probably have you do this, and you’ll quickly learn that OCD is making you feel/think this way. I would never have been able to do this on my own. With professional help through NOCD, this problem might actually become something you don’t even think about later, or you might even laugh at the fact that you once had the fear. If you have the means, talk to a counselor, be open and honest and get your life back. Hope this helps. God Bless.

Also you are not your thoughts or urges You got this