I hate false memory. Does anyone develop false memory immediately after something happens? Like not after a long time, but almost immediately? This happened to me. Something happened and immediately I questioned if what I did had a more sinister motive/intention. And now I’ve really come to believe it did. And the fact that I’m labeling it as a false memory, my ocd is trying to tell me I have just convinced myself it’s a false memory to cope.

When you have a false memory, can you actually see it happening in your mind?

Does anyone else experience a moment of clarity where you feel strong relief that the intrusive thought isn’t true, only to then immediately start questioning if you’ve only convinced yourself that because you don’t want the thought to be true? I’m pretty confident it would take some crazy mental gymnastics to actually successfully convince myself I didn’t do something that I deep down knew I did, but every time I resist the compulsions and try to sit with the uncertainty or tell myself to think about what is logical, I usually briefly know that this probably didn’t happen but am unable to move on out of fear I’m just in denial and have convinced myself of that.

Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?