i’m okay now my soocd is calming down and i just accept that they are thoughts i remember when i was so bad and i’m happy i can look back and say that i’m okay

Same i always feel like these thoughts don’t even feel intrusive anymore and feel like they are so real and true

@Brave through I feel like mine were never, ever intrusive. It’s been 8 years. I want to kill myself.

@lennygirl It feels the same i saw something on an ott platfrom of this woman in a particular pose and i wanted to watch it cause of that I don’t think there’s any bigger proof than that of denial amd not ocd I didn’t feel anxious or nervous i wanted to watch it and it felt i wanted to cause I wasn’t straight which I don’t even know how that thought came it felt like my reality my truth and not an intrusive thought cause i would have enjoyed watching it and just saying and considering all this is enough proof to say that it couldn’t be ocd and even that is not making me anxious or nervous when it should why does it feel like i want it do i??! What if i do?!? Who am i?!? I feel like i don’t even know myself anymore and all this is like the figuring out thing what do i do?!?

@Brave through I feel the same way. I have so, so much proof. I can’t go on.

@lennygirl What do i do?!? Who am i?!? Will it be easier if i agree?!? I am so close to losing myself idk who i am anymore…

@lennygirl i felt the same way to like i had so much proof that i am but i don’t try and figure it out the more you try and figure it out the more real it feels

I understand but it feels like my reality like what i want and i am just lying to myself like why was i pulled towards that picture of this woman answer would be i wanted to watch it cause i am interested in it why would i be?!? Who am i?!? This all always points towards denial otherwise why would a straight person enjoy these thoughts or want to pursue them and i not feel anxious or nervous about them and want to watch them idk if its ocd doing this to me or what?!? But all proof point towards something else i am so lost don't know what to do?!?is this even ocd ?!? What do i do?!? I am so lost..

@Brave through if you were pulled by it then it might have been a compulsion to check if you were attracted

@Brave through compulsions are sneaky and it’s very common for the anxiety to go away just like mine did

@jusme I am at a point where nothing feels real anymore cause I don’t know whats real anymore and what if i was pulled cause I actually wanted it and liked it and stuff and why does it feel like i did?!? How do i tell myself this is ocd?!?

@Brave through you don’t tell yourself it’s ocd you just accept that maybe you it’s true it’s really hard and takes practice erp helps

@jusme Hopefully i can get professional help soon too… thankyou for hearing me out:)

@Brave through i hope you can too everything will be okay ❤️

almost a year but for soocd but i’ve always had ocd with other themes

@jusme Do you feel it’s fading away? X