everytime i try to see the light at the end of the tunnel by telling myself “you got this! you have graduation coming up & you can finally join beauty school” my mind tells me “you’re a monster no one wants you there”. i don’t wanna live like this. i wish i could just escape my mind.

CM22

Date posted: 3y

I'm in college now and I never believed that possible. You do have this, whether you can or can't see it yet. I finally went to my YA church group the other night for the 1st time in nearly 8 or 9 months. I drank it in, it was literal Heaven. I never believed I'd be able to set foot in there again. I even told some of my story, to some people who probably haven't dealt with OCD, and guess what? I got 0 judgment, only shared thankfulness of the goodness of God. I want you to know that I claim that for you too. There is freedom and there is power when two or more agree. So I speak deliverance over you and that answers would soon be found and every dark assignment be lifted 💖 You can do this, and we are all here for you and with you, and we can promise you this: You're not evil and you're not a monster.

Anonymous_234

Date posted: 3y

omg🥺🥺 im sooo proud of you!! i will overcome this! this gave me so motivation!! your amazing! may god bless you with many more blessings! also i think i might’ve asked this already but how long were you struggling with pocd?😞

CM22

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous_234 Thank you so much!!! Yes you will girl!! Well ig I dealt with it here and there through out my life in small increments, but last summer for 3/4 months I dealt with it in the absolute worst form, along with other types of harm OCD too. So I definitely understand and empathize with where you're at, even the paralysing fear that turns into numbness where you can't even feel afraid or human anymore. I've been through all that, and I promise you God is faithful and He won't leave you there.💖😊

Anonymous_234

Date posted: 3y

@CM22 yesss it’s hitting me badly right now to the point where it’s making me feel like it’s turning me into my worst nightmare. i started medications yesterday and i feel so weird that i’m feeling calm to these thoughts. part of me knows everything’s going to be okay then the other part of me is doubting me. it makes me question if its ocd or not something and it freaks me out. it’s been so bad lately. but i’m so so sorry you had to go through that girly 😞 this isn’t easy at all! i feel like i can’t trust myself anymore. buttt i also wanted to ask whatd you do to let the thoughts pass or stop ruminating?🥺🥺 also thank you so much again! you’re so sweet🥺🤍

ekppppp

Date posted: 3y

me too i would be having a great day and then the disgusting pocd thoughts images come and ruin my day

Anonymous_234

Date posted: 3y

i can’t even have good days anymore bc my mind constantly questions everything, like rn i started medication & now my thoughts are telling that i’m more likely to act on it now that i’m calm. i hate this shit so much.

Hambo666

Date posted: 3y

hey! i’m also graduating soon and going to beauty school! we seem pretty similar :-) OCD sucks a lot but you’re not alone and you’re NOT YOUR THIUGHTS! take a look @ this website. it explains a lot and was super helpful for me https://peaceofmind.com/education/types-of-ocd/intrusive-thoughts/

Anonymous_234

Date posted: 3y

thank youu so much!🥺 pocd has almost ruined my entire life. it’s been a scary 3 months for me. i graduated highschool while going through a ocd spike and i couldn’t even be happy for myself 😞

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