this is sort of stupid but ocd is acting like a bitch rn every time i find an adult man attractive, and i notice his manly features like his facial hair or something my brain is like "oh. your dad has facial hair too. you like your dad?" and it makes this weird association between the guy im attracted to and my dad and it makes me feel weird and yucky and the girl i have a crush on has a rather high pitched voice, and i love her voice because it's soft and soothing and then my brain is like "you like her voice and it's high pitched. kids have high pitched voices too. you like kids?" and it makes me feel gross again it's irrational yeah but my brain makes these weird associations and it bothers me or even shuts off my attraction completely and when i tell myself it's okay to say this man is hot even if my brain is telling me" if you do that you're basically admitting to being attracted to your dad" i just can't do it cuz i feel gross although i know that deep down its a bit of a reach i hope this made sense