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- hannie
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I have been dealing with this as well 😔 it’s not fun!! I would double check to make sure things I saw and noises I heard were real “just to make sure” (they were always real) but it still scares me so much
Currently dealing with this right now from the moment I wake up to to the moment I fall asleep, constantly checking if I’m schizophrenic or if I’m hearing things or seeing things it’s very tiring but I know i need to keep telling myself it’s just ocd and that my anxiety is just heightened. I totally get the “anxiety mimicking symptoms” i then get thrown into a huge panic that it’s finally happening that I’m now schizophrenic even tho anxiety and ocd can literally make us believe anything when we’re in such a panic state. What has helped me is finding ocd Instagram accounts and YouTube accounts as there is many posts on this theme and to know that I’m not the only one experiencing this theme which has reduced my anxiety a bit
Thank you so much for responding! I’ve been trying to tell myself that I know this is OCD playing with me and it does help, but then sometimes I’m stuck in a negative loop where I’m just questioning it all. Like I keep telling myself this is beginning stages and I’m actually developing it and then I start to check every thought. Then my mind like has a complete random weird thought and I start to believe I’m becoming delusional. It’s been stressing me out but I’m trying to just deal with the feelings and anxiety I get and try and tell myself “oh well If I am” but sometimes it’s hard because the anxiety I feel with those thoughts is kind of being me down, as I have been able to manage my OCD symptoms for the last 2 years. I’m sorry you are experiencing this as well. It makes it hard sometimes but the fact that you keep going is strength. I have to remind myself of that. Sending you all good thoughts as you deal with this as well!!!
@hannie Oh I definitely relate to everything your saying, with the weird random thought thing for me anyways my therapist said it’s because I’m always in such a panic state so my brain is almost like spaghetti and is all tangled up and not making sense which is causing the panic most of the time. I really hope you get through this too and just to know your not alone !
That makes sense! So our thoughts are probably just firing because we are in fight or flight? It’s just so weird cause they come out of nowhere and are so random and weird that it always stops and makes me feel anxious cause I feel they are not normal thoughts and that makes me think somethings wrong. I don’t know if that makes sense lol. Thank you!
And by no means am I saying that if you have schizophrenia, you are crazy! I just want to clarify that. It’s just kind of a anxiety feeling I get like I feel as if I’m losing my mind and I’m not in control. I guess my fear is based on losing the somewhat normalcy/ routine I have and not being able to do everything for myself. I really hope I’m not offending anyone but I just don’t know how else to explain it.
Thank you so much for responding! I’ve been double checking too! It’s frustrating cause I feel I could become schizophrenic any second and I know logically that’s it’s my OCD but it feels so real. My new thing is having random bizarre thoughts and then my mind is like yep that’s not a normal thought, Must be a delusion. Then I panic and think that that’s it, I’m losing it. Ugh I hope I pull myself out! Sending you all the positive thoughts your way! Just know you are very strong from facing OCD everyday!
Ok.. so another one of my fears is the fear of being schizophrenic or psychotic. I’m 9 weeks post partum and I read about psychosis and it freaked me out!! I’m 29 years old and I know schizophrenia happens in your teens or early 20s. My therapist told me that as long as I don’t have a voice telling me to act on my intrusive images or thoughts that it’s not psychotic. Once she said that later that day the words “do it” kept repeating in my mind. I have 0 desire to harm anyone and I’ve never been a violent person. If anyone has experienced something similar please share! I feel like my mind loves to switch things up and play tricks on me.
I need to know if someone else experience this because I think this may be the root of some of my ocd themes. So basically even when I don't really have a theme going on I get intrusive thoughts of different topics. For example if I'm reading an article about a person with ADHD my mind tells that maybe I have adhd and because if I had I'd be different, and it feels like I want to even though I don't do because I know how destressing it is to live with such disorders and who would ever want to develop a disorder like that. I get intrusive thoughts like about illnesses, identities and other things and my mind says that I have to have those things because they would make me different and my mind wanted me to be different in that way. And it felt like I wanted those things even tho I know how terrible they affect people and didn't really wanted to have them. Now it tells me the same thing about gender and sexuality that I have to be different in that way while I don't and it's causing me hocd right now. I guess this is my final answer but I wanted to know if somebody else experienced something like this. Like sometimes I get depressive episodes because of my anxiety and ocd but once I became obsessed with the idea of having chronic severe depression and I got so anxious but then felt relieved when I didn't but then my intrusive thoughts would pop up here and there
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