18+ I’ve recently started getting more and more inc3st intrusive thoughts lately about my brothers that I feel disgusting about because I’ve never had these kind of thoughts before and while me and my boyfriend were having sex the whole time I kept getting images of them and my thoughts kept telling me I think they’re attractive and that I’m bored with my boyfriend because I’d rather be thinking about them. And I feel so gross saying all of this but I don’t want to tell my boyfriend even though he knows pretty much everything about my POCD. With all these sexual intrusive thoughts at once it just makes me feel like I’m a pervert and that I want all these thoughts especially when my ocd keeps bringing up my past porn addiction and mistakes I have made. I in no way shape or form want these thoughts but I just feel so guilty considering my past and how my intrusive thoughts seem so real. Ugh I just want to be normal again and have normal thoughts that normal people have.

aquarius_grl🤍

110d ago

Idk I guess the point of this post is to see if anyone relates which I know is bad but I just can’t help but think these thoughts could define who I am ig😞

Anonymous

110d ago

hey going thru the intrusive thoughts now and it gets better. I also experience with porn addiction and am have not been watching it and eventually those thoughts will fade with time too well for me

Anonymous

110d ago

I hear you and relate

Anonymous

110d ago

I’d love to be like accountability partners with this! It’s hard to find someone

aquarius_grl🤍

110d ago

I’d like that. It’s honestly hard to still accept that I have an addiction like it seems like I don’t but at the same time it’s like having sex isn’t quite enough sometimes. Is that relatable for you and if so how did you get over that?

sshepp213

110d ago

You’re not alone. It’s actually common for people with OCD, especially having taboo obsessions, to feel guilty about them. You can always talk to your therapist about integrating sex into exposure work. It’s also really common for people with OCD to have intrusive thoughts during sex which is the worst cause it totally ruins sex. Stay strong, you got this! ❤️

Kuno

110d ago

That's a big mood. It took me years to build a mental fortitude to deal with my intrusive thoughts. I would use mental imagery or symbolism to get rid of them like imagining the thoughts I didn't want as a Polaroid picture on a tree stump in a peaceful park and then using a chainsaw or flame thrower to destroy them lol. I know it probably feels like those thoughts are there because what If you secretly want them, but I promise you that's not how ocd works. Ocd makes you hyper focus on the things you literally don't want to think about. It's a real mind fuck. Porn can be great as long as it gives you a sense of comfort and joy and isn't ruining your life or getting in the way. I personally love anime tiddy and it relaxes me to look at and enjoy, but when my OCD latched onto it and had me dead ass browsing Twitter all day every day, saving, tagging and organizing anime tiddy pictures, I didn't have time to do anything else I wanted, and it stopped being fun and relaxing and more like a job I had to do. I still struggle with it sometimes but I had to force myself to stop checking and go play video games instead or something