My anxiety is deep my relationship is more than likely over and it hurts so much because I just now am realizing I’ve needed help for a long time and I let her see the worst of rocd I accused her of not loving me and cheating on me for 2 years and we were talking and now she says she needs time and we have a kid together the doubts are strong but I’m fighting so hard I’m doing everything I can to not call her because she asked me not to talk to her but to our daughter and I want her nothing more than to tell her how much I love her but she is confused from my actions and I know she needs space but my ocd wants to call her and confess but she also doesn’t want to seem understanding about this and said that it wasn’t an excuse and I no that it’s an excuse I needed help so long ago and I’m trying to now I’m filled with so much doubt and my chest wants to pop sitting here is so hard

Thank you

Dang, that's is the worse feeling in the world. Does she know you have OCD?

Yes she knows now

I’m going to pick some up she drops our daughter off on Sunday and it sucks being told that my ocd is no excuse and it really isn’t but I didn’t know why my mind always took me to these places until a few days ago I’m 31 years old I’ve always been afraid to seek help because I thought that I was weak if I did but I needed to long ago and it hurts more that it took for her to leave for me to realize that I need this for me so I can be a better man but it’s sucks and my mind fills up with so much

I'm sure it will be fine How long have you been together. It's hard for those who don't have OCD to really understand, so they see it as a cop out. But that's really not the case. Maybe there's a book or website she can read. But, maybe she just needs so space to think too. Idk But I hope there's a resolution

Or maybe she needs to sign up to NOCD

No meds I quit smoking weed and and quit playing video games because they were part of my compulsions and it’s a little more stressful but I’m trying to force myself through because then my ocd demon will have nowhere to hide anymore and I have to feel every emotion and feeling and listen to every thought it is very hard to do but I’m forcing myself to do so in order to fix my brain I have a lot of willpower but my ocd has been fed a lot since I was 12 and I’m 31 finally getting help because I realize I need help it just took a very traumatic experience for me to realize I need to get back on top of my life