Omg I feel like I wrote this, I’ve been dealing with this same EXACT thing. It’s killing me. I’ve literally taken screenshots of all my browsing history because of this😭
I feel like you read my mind
@oneday🤍 I’m so glad I’m not alone in this. Mine are all based on a thought I had about it two years ago and it’s not gone still. It’s been a rough journey and I’m feeling triggered today but trying to get though it. I haven’t seen people really discuss this theme a lot and I’m terrified to search anything up, for obvious reasons , just to feel like there are others suffering as well and I’m not alone !
@block123 No you’re definitely not alone in this. I felt alone with this as well because I haven’t really seen people talk about it. But when you posted this, I felt like you read my mind. I feel triggered any time I go on the internet because I’m afraid I’ve done/looked something bad up and I’m going to go to jail or that someone is watching me when I browse. It’s been haunting me to the point that I’ve eliminated safari from my iPhone because I’m terrified. I hope one day we can both recover from this. ♥️
@oneday🤍 Me too!
@block123 I can’t even trust myself to go on the internet because I’m afraid I’ve done/will do act on my thoughts 😭
@oneday🤍 I know what you mean. On the worst days i get these fears and thoughts too. But I feel that the more I use the internet/social media etc, the more I expose myself to these fears , the more they have dissipated over the past months!
Not for pocd but, anything that I say or do(Even though does not offend anyone) I think I will go to jail or they execute me because of that!😭 For example when I write anything here on NOCD I think police is following my posts and someday will catch me (Even though I know I didn't do anything illegal!...)😭😢
Posting on NOCD is one example, all of my time and energy throughout the day is wared on such things!😭😢 I see people around me and I say in my mind good luck with them that they don't have such thoughts.
@oneday I understand you very well and I'm always thinking that someone is looking at me through phone lens😭😢
@one day Even when I posted this texts I think people will become suspicious and for sure look at me through my phone lens😭😢
When I write something I think that I have wrote something illegal or something about sex that offends someon So I'm terrified of writing something and I have always obsession that what if someone reads it( even though I know that I have not wrote anything illegal or about sex!)😭😢
Unfortunately yes because of the immature acting out I did almost a decade ago when it came to p*** and experimenting. I really hate that I was exposed to it all at a young age and it still gives me high anxiety and discomfort to this day