A few years ago I had a thought that I would rape my friends dad who passed away when we were really young. I've felt like a horrible person ever since and have not felt like myself in what seems like forever. I feel the need to tell this friend of mine out of the feeling of its the right thing to do. I feel like all the tools i've learned in therapy will only help with future obsessions, and not this one since it's already been in my brain for years. infact everything i have learned is not helping with this obsession. has anyone felt like this recently?

If only I can tell you how much a relate to this. I get thoughts of touching my dog sexualy and family and friends. I get images that I don’t even know how to explain.like using objects in a sexual way. And I keep getting reminded of my past like nasty things I did in the past when I was young.And I feel I have to tell my friend about everything I did in the past when I don’t want to.bc I know she won’t understand.Keep your head up.And what your experiencing is a compulsion.where you feel you have to act on something like telling people things and if you don’t you get anxious but when you do you feel relieved.Take it from me I always kept acting on those compulsions.I learned that nothing can make you do what you don’t wanna do.YOUR in charge of your mind.You got this bro.your not the only one.You would be surprised about how many ppl suffer from this. Keep your head up. I have been researching about mental illnesses bc when I’m older I wanna be a therapist. It will be ok.Your strong you can do this. The more you act one the compulsion the more it will keep comming back.So when you feel you just have to tell someone something,You don’t.YOUR in charge of your mind!you got this 😋👍🏻