Please tell me anyone has done this, when i was younger I used to act on ”harmless” intrusive thoughts and this makes me think I’m more likely to act on my k*lling thoughts today bc I already acted on harmless ones in the past, trying not to have a panic attack right now 😢 i know this is reassurance seeking but i just have to know

What do u mean by acting on "harmless" intrusive thoughts?

I mean like calling 911 and then hanging up before the call connected, holding my cat by the balcony edge to prove i wouldnt drop him, putting my artfolder in the computer in the trashbin and then hovering over the delete button in case i clicked by mistake, googling myself to see if anyone wrote something bad about me online, and then felt horrible but at the same time relieved that nothing bad happened (my intention was not to drop my cat from the balcony, it was just to stand there with him by the edge just to have the thought”out of the way”) the thoughts would not leave me alone until i did it, and i would have so much anxiety up until that point, almost panic attack

This was long before i got harm ocd, which i got in 2020

I’ve tested myself by standing at the bedroom door with the kitchen knife while my wife slept in the bed to see if I wanted to do what my harm ocd said.

I would never dare to do that, what if i suddenly like it?? 🥺

Damn even my own brothers wouldn't describe things you relate to which are as accurate as what I've been through. That's interesting (and relieving at some levels bc of my own experiences), and I'll take time to re-read your post out of my shift later to share a proper answer.

I so hope i didnt trigger you! 🥺

@threethirdsocdsufferer Lmao actually I was wondering what should I share on this post in order not to trigger you about my own experiences. On the contrary it's really nice to see people going through same experiences so don't worry about that. Dre83 seems to experience "interesting" things I'm sure you both know what I mean it's incredible how we're a lot of people having the same issues.

@Morpheus 75 Yeah, it’s amazing how we are connected through our ocd and how we can help each other. Ocd is very interesting that’s for sure.

I had so much anxiety today, bordering on fullblown panic attack, but this app and the people on here always seems to rescue me, im so glad i found it ☺️ thanks for commenting on my post!

Dude, you made my day with ur first answer lmao, bc I've experienced EXACTLY the same things for so many years. Many people are nice here, I'm fed-up with answering from my smartphone. I guess I should re-buy a laptop, it's easier to write stories and answers compared with a smartphone. But anyway, don't feel like you're alone, even though I assume each one of us feels like # I'm the monster having crossed the line#. On the contrary, sharing our mental issues prove so much that we're re far from being alone experiencing weirdo stuff.

@Morpheus 75 Im so glad it helped someone at least, i thought at best i was gonna get banned/mean comments about ”oooh this is not ocd, youre a real monster” but i felt i just had to get it out there or i would explode 😭 thank you for basically existing! 😊

@Morpheus 75 Also, you just made my day/month with saying you have the same experiences! So thank you again! It made me feel such relief

Yeah it's a real pleasure to have a talk with someone sharing the exact same stuff. So I'm glad that I could help you feel relieved from the pain of feeling alone. I'm also struggling hard with OCS for more than 20 years by now it's a mess but I continue on moving forward in life. What's really important is to admit that we are owned by this, once admitted it's important to share. This app is nice for this it's like people getting along on the same frequency.

Then i can ”happily” tell you i googled about all day yesterday (bc i was panicking) and found more people on forums (reddit etc) who have my and obviously your experiences, so we are definitely not alone! I mean, what difference does it make to know someone else suffers too? Well it makes us feel less alone! And that always feels good! Tho this app is always my comfort app!

I totally agree on that! We should talk more often we seem to get along pretty well. The thing is I wonder weither we could talk about all our special stuff together without risking to trigger each other lmao.

Well ever since developing harm ocd i havent had any more of those ”harmless” thoughts, its like they just had to give way for something worse 😂 so i dont think anything could trigger me (though i am wary)

Lmao! Yes! it's exactly how ocd works actually, we're always obsessed about one thing at a time. How was your day? Hope you feel better and not alone anymore

I feeel very much better today and hope i dont jinx it by saying it! And you?

@threethirdsocdsufferer Maybe we could have a talk out of here we clearly get along so 🤷‍♂️ what do you think?

@Morpheus 75 Okii that sounds great! My IG is @hannabeatricenorgren And FB Hanna Beatrice Norgren 😊 send me a request wherever

@threethirdsocdsufferer I added you. it will be nice for sharing our thoughts on messenger when we want or need to ✌️.