i used to be able to just fuck around and kiss girls for fun at parties and even consider threesome fully knowing i was straight and was just open to it for fun. now if someone brings this up to me or whatever i get so scared. like hocd completely changed my mindset in that way. i always knew i was straight and was confident in it and now i’m worries i’m bisexual or lesbian. and it takes my attraction away from boys. which is what i actually desire in my heart. fuck this man

Username: Mike1234Mike1234

Date posted: 5y ago

Not to give assurance and not to lessen these thoughts, but what if you told your mind and accepted that it is “ok” to be whatever your mind is telling you might like, but then say to yourself, I understand these thoughts coming forward, but “I choose to be with who I am most comfortable with, and that’s the way I’m running my life”. You have provided a workable answer with no more questioning the thoughts. The investigation is over, case closed. You can now move forward as you and answered the question.

Username: idont241idont241

Date posted: 5y ago

This totally happens to me. I am literally crying about the part of losing attraction to guys. Now i can’t even find a good looking guy and picture myself with one. I feel like I am never going to find a guy that I love because I am going to end up gay or asexual. This hurts so bad. I just want to have my old mindset back where I used to think a girl was pretty and not think much of it. My head hurts from all the thoughts and crying. I really don’t know what to do

Username: SarahLynnSarahLynn

Date posted: 5y ago

Same here! Me too! I feel like I must be either gay or asexual! What is that?! I woke my boyfriend up this morning cause I was crying about it too!

Username: idont241idont241

Date posted: 5y ago

It’s horrible. It’s like a part of you creates fake memory saying what if you’ve always been like this. When you know you haven’t because when the thoughts started it felt brand new, but the thoughts are much harder to dismiss.

Username: LavanderLavander

Date posted: 5y ago

Mike, that was genius.

Username: ocdumbass

Date posted: 5y ago

i think i might be developing sexual orientation ocd because i identify as a lesbian but when i was a kid i only ever crushed on guys. im starting to wonder if i just had hocd the entire time and believed the thoughts so hard that i tricked myself into thinking im gay. but i really don't wanna be straight ?

Username: Lleonesss

Date posted: 3y ago

I'm in a weird position rn...I don't really fear discovering that I'll be a bisexual because that makes me think that I can be with men then and that if I turn out to be bisexual I still wouldn't date women...it's the fear of being a lesbian that's predominant in my hocd but lately my mind tells me that since I don't fear being bisexual that much I might be one and since a few weeks whenever I come across the word bisexual it feels like I'm happy or something but I don't want to be ...I just want to be straight...does this happen? I don't know if what I said makes sense.

Username: Nour04

Date posted: 3y ago

i keep seeing people on here saying they never questioned their sexuality before and it makes me sick because i have and this is further proof that i am in denial. i questioned it though not because i liked a girl, but because i fit a lot of those stereotypes and started believing tiktoks saying stuff like "if you do this you're bi" or "if you like this you're bi" and some of them applied that's why i thought i was bi, but even then i didn't fantasize about girls and didn't feel like i was truly bi. but this makes me sick to the stomach. this doesn't feel like hocd anymore, it just feels like i am struggling with my sexuality and i hate it. i just please i don't want to like girls or be with girls please :(

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