The amount of se*ual thoughts and feelings i get all day long towards same sex is not possible with hocd. Its like im on the verge of giving in and doing it and once I do it will all be over. I had sexual thoughts towards girls too quite alot, actually i cant remember my life before ocd clearly anymore but i do remember I never felt anxiety fantasizing about women but im afraid that attraction/lust towards women wasnt real and enough for me to have been straight. Wish i could talk to someone. Theres so much bottled up inside. Ughhh