i have this real event that i can't come to any conclusion about, it really hurts me to think that i could have done this thing. especially under ill intentions(which i would NEVER EVER DO). anyways i've talked to my friend about it and she said that she doesn't think i would do anything for any bad reason or to hurt anyone, and that what happened wasn't really a problem. but i don't even really remember and/or know what happened, so im going of off what i can put together after going through tons and i mean TONS of ruminations to come to this story. that makes somewhat of sense, but i keep going over it thinking how i ruined someone's life when that's sooo far from true and i know that. but it feels hard to let go.