I went to my cousin's home yesterday and he has a two year old daughter. She's really cute and while I was there we played a lot and nothing bad happened. The whole day I was constantly getting really bad images in my mind and I was constantly checking if I'm getting a groinal. There was a moment while playing when I felt this sudden urge to do something inappropriate and I got scared . Being so scared brought me relief for a while but later I started feeling less scared and now I can't sleep thinking " what if I acted on that urge'. A part of me knows I would never do that but I'm so messed up right now . And then I start thinking ' what if it's not pocd ? ' ughhhh

i know how you feel. I'm gonna say this but don't take it as reassurance: it's pocd. it's definitely pocd. you're doubting which confirms it's just your ocd and trust me when i say your thoughts don't define you, I'm sorry you're getting these bad thoughts but remember you're not them

I keep thinking is it fear or excitement and then I fall into a loop. I so hope it's pocd and that I'm not actually a bad person. Do you also have pocd ?

@Chichi yep i do! and it's so bad because i also have real events OCD and it feels so bad. but just know that it's not real attraction and it's just the fear of being attracted, it's scientifically proven so lol

Thoughts do not equal facts! I know what you're going through, too. I read that this theme, is quite common.