I went to my cousin's home yesterday and he has a two year old daughter. She's really cute and while I was there we played a lot and nothing bad happened. The whole day I was constantly getting really bad images in my mind and I was constantly checking if I'm getting a groinal. There was a moment while playing when I felt this sudden urge to do something inappropriate and I got scared . Being so scared brought me relief for a while but later I started feeling less scared and now I can't sleep thinking " what if I acted on that urge'. A part of me knows I would never do that but I'm so messed up right now . And then I start thinking ' what if it's not pocd ? ' ughhhh

How is this OCD? Who with Pocd thinks about a naked child ???? I was over here thinking if I’m actually attracted to kids because I find some of them good looking you know and my little cousin I have thoughts about her too and I was thinking about her naked but I wasn’t aroused or nothing so that’s where I’m confused It was intentional so does that make me a p*do?

I’m scared I might become a r*pist I’m over here thinking at a time I saw a kid and I looked down at his pants like I keep thinking about what I did and it’s like I feel attracted and to me it felt like I gave him this predator look and he probably thinks I’m a P I just wonder how is this Pocd Because it feels like I want to do stuff like I don’t know I keep thinking about that situation

I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that