i know how you feel. I'm gonna say this but don't take it as reassurance: it's pocd. it's definitely pocd. you're doubting which confirms it's just your ocd and trust me when i say your thoughts don't define you, I'm sorry you're getting these bad thoughts but remember you're not them
I keep thinking is it fear or excitement and then I fall into a loop. I so hope it's pocd and that I'm not actually a bad person. Do you also have pocd ?
@Chichi yep i do! and it's so bad because i also have real events OCD and it feels so bad. but just know that it's not real attraction and it's just the fear of being attracted, it's scientifically proven so lol
Thoughts do not equal facts! I know what you're going through, too. I read that this theme, is quite common.
Thanks for responding 😊