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@professional anxious overthinker Yes! I don't know how to live without knowing for sure this horrible scenario isn't secretly true yet there's no way to confirm that is good enough. I feel so alone and trapped in desperate for some connection yet this is what ocd attacks so I can't even believe that connection is real it's a disaster.

@professional anxious overthinker This actually makes me feel really good and hopeful because that's exactly what happens with me as well. For around 5 months i had mild symptoms where the thought were at the back of my head sometimes with small spikes but nothing crazy, then suddenly a week ago i had a severe mental breakdown where i was begging and pacing around even hitting the floor and feeling extreme suffering and anxiety, and this went on for 5-6 days so yeah i feel u. When i get a horrible breakdown i feel like i will never be okay again like ever, even tho i had breakdowns a couple of times and it gets better, still i always feel THIS time im done forever while having a breakdown.

@professional anxious overthinker And i even feel like even if i completely recover from ocd and my life is amazing that it would still be horrible because even tho I'd be happy the horrible possibility may still be true i just won't care or think about it but it's still horrible. So like even recovering from ocd feels like my life is still horrible. The only perfect solution isn't possible, which is to somehow confirm 100% that this idea isn't true or happening secretly.