My OCD has managed to convince me that I will have to ”fight” an ”urge to kill” my whole life and that ERP can’t take that urge away, that all I have to do is act on it and then it will be gone and I can live peacefully after that. I hate this.

I have that same feeling like if I act on it it’s gonna go away I thought mabye I was crazy

Also do you know if ocd is gonna get harder to treat if it moves on to adult hood because I’m 13 and I don’t want it to get worse

Hmm… the best answer i can give is that of course it can get worse but it has nothing to do with adulthood, for me it became worse when i experienced trauma or stressful situations, but then again it is always better the earlier you get treatment so that you’re better prepared when you get older! 😊

Ok thank you

When I first started treatment my OCD told me "ERP won't work for you. It has worked for countless other people, but you are the exception" OCD is a liar. It DID work for me. Better than I ever thought possible. I am now in recovery. I've been able to overcome both harm and suicide OCD. Recovery IS possible

And my OCD tells me exactly the same… such a liar. Maybe there’s hope after all! Hmhm

I have this exact thought and feeling. It keeps me from having peace

Yes

Yes its like the constant thorn in my side ”you will fight the urge til you die” so hopeless