Ugenefits1
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
OCDtylerOCDtyler
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Hi! Remember, a thought is not a prediction, instruction, or call to action. Thoughts just appear. Keep in mind, the presence of an anxious thought doesn't necessarily mean anything at all. When you try to analyze the thought or guess its origin/meaning, you are falling in the ruminative trap. It's important to keep in mind that OCD's nickname is "the doubt disorder". The best way to combat OCD is to practice ERP. Something you can try: when an OCD thought comes up you can say “Oh wow, there goes that thought again. It’s really bothering me.” By doing this, you are using language to distance yourself from the bothersome experience. The more you do that, the more natural it will become over time. I highly recommend The OCD Answer book by Dr. Patrick McGrath if you haven't read it yet. OCD can be so difficult to deal with, it's important that we stay compassionate to ourselves. Here's somethings you can say to yourself when things are hard: "I feel sad and angry that I have OCD. I am sure everyone often feels this way at times. May I be gentle with myself and honor how hard this is." Kimberly Quinlan "Recovery entails accepting the presence of thoughts, not accepting thoughts as truths" Lauren McMeikan If you are to use fear as a criteria, an OCD life is more abundant with fear than a life where you accept uncertainty. Have you done ERP/worked with an ERP therapist yet? It might also be helpful to check out NOCD's support groups just to know you're not alone. https://www.treatmyocd.com/support-groups
Ugenefits1Ugenefits1
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you so much that really helps. I have been in therapy but I just now after two years found a psychologist so I think before I wasn’t getting the therapy I needed but I mean I’m anxious to talk to them about everything but i want to get better. It was just yesterday I was having a really good day then I got a bad thought and it felt like it was literally screaming at me to admit a part of it was true and I was like okay it is not in the way it’s telling me it’s true though not in a bad way that means I’m attracted to or want to harm children just I was like okay i think that this means that and it is true in that way. But even that feels bad and I’m just wondering if all of it was a part of the ocd attack cause I guess i feel I can’t think about things clearly ever and I would never think or actually feel the way my ocd was trying to tell me I think or feel about this thing and it’s like cause I gave in a little about the best case scenario and was like I don’t feel that way in a gross disgusting way that the rest of it is true? Or that me being like okay the best case scenario which is I just agree with the thought in a normal way not a gross one is true but also like I just idk how to explain it I just idk if I actually agreed with the best Case or if it was also just from me ruminating and a symptom. But sometimes idk what is ocd or not and idk if that’s normal.
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