- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
Toughts doesn't stops, because you keep give importance to them! There are a lot of compulsion that can be mental! (Like rationalising, ruminating, keep overthinking) And they are as dangerous as the concrete one! It isn't really a reassurance uh, but I have a flat stomach, maybe I'm even too skinny, and I still have rocd, I can't make a relationship last longer than a year (let's say 6 months+ another couple without feelings; and it is the boy that left me at the and).... soo no, flat stomach doesn't change things! It's your ocd speaking!! But hey, let's watch the progress you made!! You already find out what is your wrong belief at the base of everything!! You are a step closer to heal!!!š¤©š
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- Date posted
- 22w
I feel like one of the worst things about ocd are the disturbing images or the ālittle moviesā that replay in your head over and over again. I have the worst sexual images with one of my family members that actually so bad that I canāt even look in the mirror. And itās even worse that I have a lovely boyfriend and Iām so disgusted of myself that I feel like I donāt deserve him and I feel like I canāt be with him because of these thoughts, even he is the most precious thing in my life. These sexual images are so horrible and what makes it even worse that in these pictures I always see myself as someone who enjoys it. I know how to deal with this anymore. My mind is trying to convince me that that I actually like these images and thoughts and this is the hardest part, that Iām doubting myself. These images pop up in my head so naturally that I always question myself if I actually donāt like it why it comes so naturally or how can my brain picture things like this if I donāt like it. Itās getting worse day by day. Itās in my head 24/7, canāt concentrate on anything else, I canāt eat because Iām constantly throwing up. And my mom has to sleep with me every night because Iām so disturbed by my own mind. My parents know that thereās something wrong with me, they think Iām depressed but sadly Itās not something I can talk openly about with them. Iām seeing a therapist next week but Iām genuinely scared to open up about these thoughts that Iām having.
- Date posted
- 20w
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and Iām hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldnāt be sexualized out of anxiety. Iām ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I donāt want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and itās driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them Iām scared of compulsions, Iām scared of thoughts, Iām scared to be awake, Iām even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. Iām exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isnāt feeling any less severe and itās been months. I donāt want to keep questioning my every move but Iām so hyperaware of everything I do. Iām so tired. Some days I donāt even have tears to cry with. Iām just so full of despair and shame
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- Date posted
- 16w
harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, thatās ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. iām constantly looking for reasons why iām not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? itās like i canāt reassure myself that this isnāt me and i donāt want to do it, but i also look for reasons why itās not me. my brain is constantly telling me āif you donāt act on this, youāll never feel freeā. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that itās not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that theyāve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldnāt. i feel like iām drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, iām scared sheād never look at me the same. iām scared sheād be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.
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