I have to keep posting and venting daily otherwise the anxiety, depressive and ßuicidal feelings intensify really fast and become unbearable and suffocating. Ive lost my mind because of this sexual obsession, my brain is unable to think, its causing me really negative feelings that my attraction to women was fake for 20 years and i didnt realize it, wtf. The more homosexual i feel the less masculine i feel sick.
Whoever you feel like on the inside, be that person on the outside. About the fake thing over the last 20 years, it’s in the past. Leave it there.
You’re in the present, which is a present in itself.