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Bedtime rituals are so bad, I used to have more intense ones, I just wanted to lay down so bad. 😔
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Right?? My neck and back hurt so much from all the twisting and turning when checking I just want to relax 😓
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@xxtty My neck is always sore from constantly tensing it, it’s rough
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I sometimes check the time when I do rituals to see the amount of time it took me even if they don’t take to long the thing I have trouble most is hygiene and dressing and shower rituals mostly dressing cause I have to do my dressing ritual everyday put on my clothes a certain way deodorant qtips face pads put hair up in bun if I don’t do it everyday I have to make up the days I missed so if I get sick and miss a couple days I have to do the ritual for that day and the days I missed like change in and out of outfits use deodorant qtips and out hair up in bun the same amount of times as missed days and I wear my bras and undershirts in order so I gotta get all correct clothing out lay them out in order of the way they go on my body it’s all bullshit and aggravating but I’ve been doing this for 15 years and it sucks same wit showering and hygiene stuff it’s all done the same way everyday I just don’t even wanna do it but I totally understand we’re your comeing from and the staying up till 4 in the morning I just started medication I feel like shit calling the doctor tomorrow they gave me 1 pill for all my issues I need an ocd doctor that better understands ocd and everything that comes wit it all I want is a fucking xanex and to relax.
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That must be so frustrating especially if you need to be somewhere at a certain time 😓 I used to do The thing where you fill in for days you missed out with mental rituals… the worst.. because it just doesn’t stop even if you fill in the days, you just keep going 😓. I really need to get a diagnosis so I can start treatment, wish I had some sort of medication for when I need to go to sleep. But I hope you talk to a better doctor and get the right medication. 🙏🏻
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@xxtty You need to no that doctors don’t no everything trust yourself there’s alot of ppl who try seeing doctors and get on medications that they prescribe and it doesn’t work cause the doctors themselves don’t understand ocd you need to try to find a doctor and therapist that specialize in ocd I’ve been doing this for 15 years even mental hospitals didn’t no wat to do wit me noones helped I’ve just been given and antidepressant and expected that to solve all my problems ocd isn’t just ocd it’s anxiety it’s stress it’s worry it’s uncertainty it’s extremely debilitating 1 pill isn’t gonna solve that but doctors are so use to just prescribeing that cause they don’t even no the help ppl wit ocd need so don’t waist years trusting doctors thinking you’ll eventually get better if something doesn’t work and feel rite then switch meds switch doctors this is your life there getting paid either way.
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I was really anxious before I went to bed last night so I couldn't stop checking my phone because i kept getting scared i was gonna somehow use my phone while asleep and send people horrible messages. Then I managed to fall asleep but then i woke up really early in the morning and just couldn't get to sleep and my mind was racing. And then it somehow unearthed false memories from a few weeks ago. Then I had this thought that "I remember" and it just made me more anxious because I know I didn't do anything but my brain is trying to tell me that I remember. OCD makes no sense sometimes, but it's still scary all the same. I hope that everyone has a good day, or at least a better day than yesterday if you're having a rough time <3
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Bro I'm scared rn, so there was a compulsion I did like 2hrs ago and I didn't do it properly cuz I kept getting a thought saying "something is gonna come in Ur room and kill you or you will have this illness It triggers me to say it but I froze because I kept seeing like a shadow and cuz I was home alone and it's dark so I didn't answer it 😃 and cuz I answered it late saying obviously I don't want to illness I would rather have the other (half of me knows it's not real), and I prayed 4 times as well cuz I didn't do the compulsion properly I tried doing it again logs if times and 1 hour later I tried again but It still didn't feel right, and now the thought is hurting my body a little and I feel shivery, and I have tried doing the compulsion but it's not working. Why can't these thighs just leave me alone and stop saying about illnesses all the time. And idk how I'm gonna get thru the night cuz I can't get the thought out of my head and I won't be able to do anything properly.
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One of my first memories of OCD was from when I was about 8-12 years old. I’ve always struggled with sleeping and prone to twisting and turning due to my brain going like 🧠 🗣️🗣️🗣️ Anyways once I couldn’t sleep and got out of bed one of my parents said, with compassion, ”oh it’s so late, why are you awake it’s school tomorrow” and when they followed me to my room I saw that the time was 22:22 and I felt a really scary feeling in my chest (today I know it was anxiety) and from that day on the time 22:22 🕰️ followed me for years. I was twisting and turning and feeling anxious about my digital clock (I’m a 90s girly) turning 22:22. I could get issues taking deep breaths, being sweaty, uncomfortable and scared and feeling like ”ITS SOON 22:22 AND WHEN THE TIME PASSES IT WILL BE TOO LATE”. I never really understood exactly what was going to be ”too late” but I’m guessing it was getting too little sleep absolutely blown out of proportion. As soon it passed 22:22 it was all good and I could fall asleep 😴 I don’t struggle with those numbers today instead I smile and feel compassionate towards little me. Still OCD sucks, I still struggle with sleep times to times and do have some magical thinking but the big difference is that I logically know that it’s not real even if it emotionally sometimes feel that way. Take care out there. If this made you feel less lonely, wanna share your first memories of OCD? ❤️
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