Bedtime rituals lasted an hour this time. I only know this because I put my phone down to start them and saw it was around 4am and now that I’ve finally put my head down to rest it’s 5:05. I think that’s the longest it’s ever lasted, I was biting the insides of my mouth the entire time and now it aches 😓

Right?? My neck and back hurt so much from all the twisting and turning when checking I just want to relax 😓

@xxtty My neck is always sore from constantly tensing it, it’s rough

That must be so frustrating especially if you need to be somewhere at a certain time 😓 I used to do The thing where you fill in for days you missed out with mental rituals… the worst.. because it just doesn’t stop even if you fill in the days, you just keep going 😓. I really need to get a diagnosis so I can start treatment, wish I had some sort of medication for when I need to go to sleep. But I hope you talk to a better doctor and get the right medication. 🙏🏻

@xxtty You need to no that doctors don’t no everything trust yourself there’s alot of ppl who try seeing doctors and get on medications that they prescribe and it doesn’t work cause the doctors themselves don’t understand ocd you need to try to find a doctor and therapist that specialize in ocd I’ve been doing this for 15 years even mental hospitals didn’t no wat to do wit me noones helped I’ve just been given and antidepressant and expected that to solve all my problems ocd isn’t just ocd it’s anxiety it’s stress it’s worry it’s uncertainty it’s extremely debilitating 1 pill isn’t gonna solve that but doctors are so use to just prescribeing that cause they don’t even no the help ppl wit ocd need so don’t waist years trusting doctors thinking you’ll eventually get better if something doesn’t work and feel rite then switch meds switch doctors this is your life there getting paid either way.