Hocd/tw* Theres no way in hell im not gay, im literally finding dudes attractive, i saw two today, i caught a glance but got so anxious and uncomfortable that i avoided looking at their face fully but as soon as i see a dude my brain starts planning the whole story that im gonna fall in love, do sweet things together etc etc. Its just scaring me that Im having a bad identity crisis and not only im realizing im gay but also transgender or a weak masculine man. I fucking hate this, i can even accept being gay, but trans? It feels like I know thats true too but could never accept it. Is it possible i lived 21 years without realizing im not truly a man? Again it feels like I know the answer to it but want it to be different. Fml man

anon324

Date posted: 3y

your ocd makes you doubt everything. once u have come to terms with the uncertainty of your sexual orientation your anxiety will target something else like your gender identity. don’t fight the thought concentrate on accepting the thoughts as they come and acknowledging that they are only thoughts and they don’t need to be analyzed

Sp1999

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

I get alot of false attraction to, this happened to me yesterday at work. Accept i dont look away i keep looking and i feel anxiety and i want to freak out bc it feels like real attraction

Imaan7

Date posted: 3y

I can stare at them when arent looking my way but when they are i cant look em in the eyes, i also think its real attraction despite all the anxiety and uncomfortableness. Idk man

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