Hocd/tw* Theres no way in hell im not gay, im literally finding dudes attractive, i saw two today, i caught a glance but got so anxious and uncomfortable that i avoided looking at their face fully but as soon as i see a dude my brain starts planning the whole story that im gonna fall in love, do sweet things together etc etc. Its just scaring me that Im having a bad identity crisis and not only im realizing im gay but also transgender or a weak masculine man. I fucking hate this, i can even accept being gay, but trans? It feels like I know thats true too but could never accept it. Is it possible i lived 21 years without realizing im not truly a man? Again it feels like I know the answer to it but want it to be different. Fml man

anon324

Date posted: 3y

your ocd makes you doubt everything. once u have come to terms with the uncertainty of your sexual orientation your anxiety will target something else like your gender identity. don’t fight the thought concentrate on accepting the thoughts as they come and acknowledging that they are only thoughts and they don’t need to be analyzed

Sp1999

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

I get alot of false attraction to, this happened to me yesterday at work. Accept i dont look away i keep looking and i feel anxiety and i want to freak out bc it feels like real attraction

Imaan7

Date posted: 3y

I can stare at them when arent looking my way but when they are i cant look em in the eyes, i also think its real attraction despite all the anxiety and uncomfortableness. Idk man

Dreamydream

Date posted: 23w

TOCD

2 nights ago I saw something on my phone and it has now spiraled into me scared of being trans or being gay because i don’t want to be… now i have a huge fear of what if i am gay and am attracted to woman or what if im not comfortable in my body and want to turn into a man. It’s freaking me out - my ocd always makes me question my character! Has anyone experienced this 😩

user74128588493

Date posted: 21w

hocd

i have had intense thoughts and fears about being gay today and i have been sick to my stomach. it just stopped and now im scared im accepting it and im not freaking out. i feel like im okay with it. I AM NOT OKAY WITH BEING GAY.

youllwintheb...

Date posted: 18w

hocd

I feel like I'm lying to myself, like I just don't accept that I'm gay, I don't want to be gay, I don't want to feel any kind of attraction anymore, I want to go to a psychologist to find out if I really have hocd or if it's just an excuse, because it feels like I really am gay, but nothing was authentic, it all started with thoughts that made me panic extremely hard and I felt like crying and I had delusions, I don't understand why this is happening to me, I didn't like any boys before the thoughts appeared, but exactly one day after they appeared, all the boys were attractive, of all ages, I want to recover :( I'm only 17 years old, for about 2 months I've been having thoughts, I don't know what to do, I can't go to a psychologist, I need help :(

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