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I was showering for those 2 hours but that was just showering it would take me so long to get ready I had to plan round my ocd so I couldn’t go out wit friends I had to be home doing all this ocd shit prior to getting admitted my mom was washing my hair to help me have more time and she would wash my face for me I also had a hard time brushing my teeth showering and other things were takeing so long I just wouldn’t do something’s cause I didn’t want to do another ritual and then it became an ocd thing that I could not brush them I tried finding ways round it like useing mouthwash and baking soda on a qtip but nothing lasted so for years I struggled wit that my teeth got horrible and a few months ago I got all my teeth pulled and dentures but noone new it was cause I struggled all these years wit brushing my teeth I was getting help washing my hair and face I didn’t wanna ask someone to brush my teeth and have someone helping me wit another thing but now that this huge trigger happened wit the carpet I’ve told everyone everything and now they realize all these years that I’ve been struggling.

I no that’s long but I just wanted to share so you no your not alone and I understand the being interrupted part when I do rituals and my bf tlk to me if I get interrupted I have to start over I also wash my hands a certain way when I do any hygeine rituals and it’s so hard cause I have to count and if the tvs on if I hear music it messes me up and I haven’t washed my own hair in 6 years cause the repetitiveness of it and when my ocd was getting worse it was cause I bombed my apartment 6 years ago and I would have to vacuum every time I changed my clothes and then I would clean the vacuum and take it apart and clean the insides and the outside and then I’d swiffer the carpet and wipe off the side of my mattress wear the bed was exposed when I bombed my hands had cuts all over them so it burned so when I would shower washing my hair and trying to brush the nots out wit my fingers my hair would cut mt hands and go into my cuts I was barely showering anyways cause I was cleaning so much and my contamination ocd was makeing it hard to like get my hair dryer and brush out and my 3 hair products that I have to put in my hair I do all of that a certain way to it was just hard but I was barely showering cause my hands made it hard so my hair would get matted which made washing my hair even harder cause it would take so long to get the nots out cause of the cuts on my hands so my bf started washing my hair for me and when I would shower I had to wash mt hair and body and shave in 1 shower I couldn’t wash my hair in 1 shower and wash my body and shave in a different shower so haveing him wash my hair I couldn’t shower myself and just shave so he had to do that to it took years of only showering like 2 times a year for a couple years till I finally started working on shaveing and now I can shave by myself if I’m in my own home.

I no that’s alot but I would love to keep in contact I live in Tennessee and have tenncare i just learned that ocd required it’s own help so I’ve been trying to find an inpatient ocd place but there’s none in my state so I’d have to go out of state but my insurance only covers in my state there’s an outpatient place here called rogers behavioral health but they don’t accept my insurance and I can’t drive 2 hours away everyday to do outpatient and there’s not alot of ocd help if you read the post at the top that the created of this app posted he tlk bout going threw the same things we are he stopped going to school stopped football his mom tried helping but couldn’t find anything they finally found an ocd therapist but there was only 1 in there area and she had a 7 month wait list and it cost 250 dollars a session wat was he supposed to do wait 7 months to get help when he’s already been sick for awhile they finally were able to get in and his mom borrowed money from a friend to pay for the sessions and he got better and went back to school and did football and then he thought if he suffered all those years haveing to leave school and regular doctors weren’t helping but when he did the exposure and response therpay and got better for the first time he thought if this is the way to help ocd then wat reason is there not more help for ocd so he created this app to help ppl they don’t accept my insurance but it’s 170 dollars for a 60 minute session and 90 for 30 minutes they do have payment plans to pay 95 dollars every Friday I can’t afford that my mom has offered to help but the last time I called nocd they sent me 3 ocd therapists information that accept my insurance so I’m hopeing they can help I no I’ve commented so many long things I’m not crazy I just wanted to share your not alone and I’ve done so much research the past completely of months that I can share getting help for ocd is hard to find there is so much information online bout there not being help for ocd that even doctors and therapists can’t help cause they don’t understand ocd I hope I didn’t scare you by riteing so much I promise I’m not as crazy as these comments may seem you’ve got this though I’m trying hard not to give up myself it’s been rough if you want to share anything I promise I’ll read all of it.

I understand wat your going threw I’m 29 and have had ocd for 15 years I just moved into an amazing apartment wit brand new carpet I was here 7 days and pest control came and sprayed majority of my carpet wit bug spray cause we seen a few fleas and fleas don’t bother me they don’t affect my ocd either so it wasn’t a big deal I have been dead ever since they sprayed I haven’t left my house I haven’t moved anything in my house since I can’t do anything cause everything is contaminated in my house the shampooing of the carpets didn’t help as much it’s everywere to me and it’s spreading if we wlk on the carpet and onto the floor it’s like there’s footsteps of the contamination if we get into the bed it’s in our bed if we set something on the floor then on the counter it’s spread it just keeps spreading and I’ve been i panick mode for 2 months now and have called every doctor every therapist every inpatient hospital in United States I have so many emails and lists of the ppl I contacted and I’ve had no luck and here I am already on ssi for my ocd and still can’t get help and have had this huge trigger in my home that I just moved into and I can’t escape.

I just learned bout exposure and response therpay a couple months ago I just learned that all these years that I’ve been on medications wit little relief on rituals that none of these doctors ever mentioned that ocd needs to be treated differently it needs different therpay it needs someone to help you slowly lessen rituals till there non existent so ontop of moveing and this huge trigger the depression of noing wat this trigger is going to do to me and learning all these years someone could’ve helped me so I could’ve gotten better I could’ve gone to school more had more positive times been able to work been able to be better not 1 doctor ever mentioned anything to me they just kept giveing me antidepressants 1 pill like it was gonna be a cure all to all my crazy anxiety that’s now makeing me physically I’ll I’ve had gerd and vertigo and stopped wearing bras cause I can’t even inhale wit them I panick I’m miserable everyone understands it and still noones helped.