I feel exactly the same and have exactly the same thoughts! Then afterwards feel so guilty for it and guilty for staying with someone when I can’t say for 100% certain if it’s right. It’s so easy to let it eat away at your head but remember that this is OCD and would happen no matter who you were with. OCD manages to attack all the things you love the most and that’s what makes it so horrid :( Hope you’re doing okay friend! You’re not alone!
I know what you mean :( I feel really guilty as well about getting thoughts like that
Im with you as well! Were all in it together. OCD attacks what you care for most. I try to remember at love is a choice, thoughts are just thoughts and feelings are not facts.
Thank you! I keep forgetting to remember that love is a choice and not a feeling but it's difficult to remember sometimes
I also get so scared that I’m not being “me” enough and that I’m hiding from something and missing out on some other alternative reality with someone else, somewhere else doing something else and it takes over your head. Every tiny little thing I’ll pick on and see flaws in and can’t stop focusing on something that isn’t attractive. Makes me feel like I can’t love him if I think that but I know it’s just the OCD- so sorry you’re feeling that way too 😖