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Dont beat yourself down so much. Nobody is perfect. You need to take as much time as you need before you go back to your regular work schedule. I took a few months off then I quit my job to find something less stressful. I still struggle everyday around people because I'm afraid of judgment. I had always been very self conscious and it's not a healthy way to live. I recently had a breakup and it's also been tough for me because I havent been able to see my boys and it's the birthday next month. Sometimes life will knock you down but you have to stay in the fight and push forward.
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It’s hard not to beat myself up when I feel worthless as a person. I had a narcissistic abusive ex once who told me no one will marry me because of my past (I got badly influenced by a friend to try a sugar daddy website to help pay off my debt while I was working full time. I ended up being used in motel rooms and lured into a bar basement for sexual favors, then thrown aside and never given a dime, never given the dating aspect of it as it’s advertised). It’s traumatized me for years and I’m terrified of men rejecting me. I see Reddit posts about how guys would never be with a girl with a past like mine and it kills me.
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You need to stay strong. I've had a troubled past as well but you need to remember that it's in the past and you cant change it . Only learn from it and try your absolute best. I've never experienced anything you went through and I can only imagine how difficult that must have been. Now that I'm a single father I feel like the only way I can be in a healthy relationship is to be with someone that I can relate to PTSD,OCD, anxiety and depression. I think you will find someone who will care for you unconditionally no matter what you went through. Never let your past mistakes dictate your future success
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I feel the same. My ex really understood me and was my best friend. But our relationship actually ended partly due to our mental health issues. So it’s good and bad to be with someone with similar struggles. I’m terrified of rejection. I can’t handle any more men telling me I’m used goods or “you can’t turn a hoe into a housewife”. I am the best girlfriend I put all my love into a relationship and I’m not a goldddigger I just wanted to get out of debt I was drowning in. I’m so so hard on myself.
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You are hard on yourself but you will grow strong from these experiences. I feel the same way about approaching people in public. Like if I'm interested in them i wouldn't know how to be normal and i end up coming off awkward. Yeah I understand the debt part . I still owe 15k in school loan debt and I recently paid off a 4k credit card debt. Just keep pushing. Keep the consistency. Let the universe do its thing and dont force anything. Let life play its role and you'll see everything will be okay.
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Thanks for the kind words. I really needed that. If you ever need someone to talk to I’m here. I’m easy to relate to and know a lot about ocd. I wish they had private chat room things on here. I usually give out my IG handle to people on here but stopped doing that cuz of extra randos.
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Thank you. I highly appreciate it! Hope your having a blessed day. I'm glad I survived another day at work. It's been getting better
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I was struggling for a bit where I was constantly trying to stop negative thoughts so I kept praying for positive thoughts. Is the scrupulosity OCD? It was so mentally draining!
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