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Dont beat yourself down so much. Nobody is perfect. You need to take as much time as you need before you go back to your regular work schedule. I took a few months off then I quit my job to find something less stressful. I still struggle everyday around people because I'm afraid of judgment. I had always been very self conscious and it's not a healthy way to live. I recently had a breakup and it's also been tough for me because I havent been able to see my boys and it's the birthday next month. Sometimes life will knock you down but you have to stay in the fight and push forward.
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It’s hard not to beat myself up when I feel worthless as a person. I had a narcissistic abusive ex once who told me no one will marry me because of my past (I got badly influenced by a friend to try a sugar daddy website to help pay off my debt while I was working full time. I ended up being used in motel rooms and lured into a bar basement for sexual favors, then thrown aside and never given a dime, never given the dating aspect of it as it’s advertised). It’s traumatized me for years and I’m terrified of men rejecting me. I see Reddit posts about how guys would never be with a girl with a past like mine and it kills me.
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You need to stay strong. I've had a troubled past as well but you need to remember that it's in the past and you cant change it . Only learn from it and try your absolute best. I've never experienced anything you went through and I can only imagine how difficult that must have been. Now that I'm a single father I feel like the only way I can be in a healthy relationship is to be with someone that I can relate to PTSD,OCD, anxiety and depression. I think you will find someone who will care for you unconditionally no matter what you went through. Never let your past mistakes dictate your future success
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I feel the same. My ex really understood me and was my best friend. But our relationship actually ended partly due to our mental health issues. So it’s good and bad to be with someone with similar struggles. I’m terrified of rejection. I can’t handle any more men telling me I’m used goods or “you can’t turn a hoe into a housewife”. I am the best girlfriend I put all my love into a relationship and I’m not a goldddigger I just wanted to get out of debt I was drowning in. I’m so so hard on myself.
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You are hard on yourself but you will grow strong from these experiences. I feel the same way about approaching people in public. Like if I'm interested in them i wouldn't know how to be normal and i end up coming off awkward. Yeah I understand the debt part . I still owe 15k in school loan debt and I recently paid off a 4k credit card debt. Just keep pushing. Keep the consistency. Let the universe do its thing and dont force anything. Let life play its role and you'll see everything will be okay.
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Thanks for the kind words. I really needed that. If you ever need someone to talk to I’m here. I’m easy to relate to and know a lot about ocd. I wish they had private chat room things on here. I usually give out my IG handle to people on here but stopped doing that cuz of extra randos.
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Thank you. I highly appreciate it! Hope your having a blessed day. I'm glad I survived another day at work. It's been getting better
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I was struggling for a bit where I was constantly trying to stop negative thoughts so I kept praying for positive thoughts. Is the scrupulosity OCD? It was so mentally draining!
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I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .
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I just feel like therapy isn’t working… like I get to talk about myself and understand myself… but I’m already incredibly self aware. My therapist thought I was like 5 years older than I am… and she gives me such basic strategies that do absolutely nothing for me. And a psychiatrist prescribed me with Zoloft… but I don’t know if T want to take medication. I’m scared of side effects… and I’m scared of getting better… I’m scared of letting my guard down. I know it will make me less cautious which makes me less likely to push myself to perfection like I currently do, which I can’t have happen. Every time I talk to my mom about it, she’s always like “Let’s talk about this some other time, I’m busy with other things”, and then never remembers. But in the rare moments we do talk about it, she treats it like I’m signing up to be a drug addict. I also feel very guilty for spending so much of my parents’ money- therapy… medication… etc… and also the idea of my being unlovable is so deeply engraved in my brain… I genuinely, truly believe it. No therapy or medication can fix it. I can’t change my mind. My therapist tells me my misophonia is not a “deal-breaker” and that someone would be lucky to have me as a partner… but then why hasn’t anyone ever liked me? My own FAMILY can’t stand me. How do I believe something I know isn’t true? That’s even harder to accept than me being unlovable. I can’t see someone loving me. And it is so incredibly exhausting to seek love,e I know I cannot have. My sister says, “It will get better with age…” It has only ever gotten worse. To the point I don’t want to get better. It has reached the severity where I feel more safe and successful with anxiety. My past 3 birthdays have been me wishing for therapy. And now I have therpay- and medication, the potential key… and I refuse? Am I too deep in? I cant get out, it’s too late. How did absolutely no one notice how much I had and have been hurting? Why did no one listen to my cries or worries? I feel really depressed and hopeless right now. It takes so much effort to get up every day… I’m so tired.
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So having not even made headway yet with sessions with my latest therapist (not NOCD) she has just left me hanging saying I’ve got too anxious and I need to increase my Remeron before she continues with me and won’t even give me a date to start again……… I don’t really want to increase my meds as it was what she was saying to me in therapy that upset me, or is it really supposed to get worse before it gets better? My career that I worked so hard for is literally hanging by a thread and her doing this to me means I have to stay off work longer and I’m just really upset by her actions and the potential knock on effects of this 😢
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