Hi friend. I’m currently in the same boat. I caved in today. I did compulsions and ruminated all day, jumped to conclusions and it was bad I put myself in a bad spot and started to freak out so I told my self out loud that I’m letting go, I can’t figure it out today, what ever happens happens. I mean I completely gave in to where when I got a tiny bit of reassurance I almost needed it right away again. When I told my self I can’t figure it, I’m letting go of it for today, I felt better and I’m doing okay now just telling myself whatever, I can’t fight no more today
I used to sit all day and ponder existential questions and if I was schizophrenic. I decided to focus more on my activities and just let the questions be there. The questions that OCD latches onto aren’t real questions, and there are no real answers. I like to do something meaningful to me - play video games, color, research something interesting, focus on a subject, text / snap a friend, or something that contributes to my life being more meaningful.