- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Hi friend. I’m currently in the same boat. I caved in today. I did compulsions and ruminated all day, jumped to conclusions and it was bad I put myself in a bad spot and started to freak out so I told my self out loud that I’m letting go, I can’t figure it out today, what ever happens happens. I mean I completely gave in to where when I got a tiny bit of reassurance I almost needed it right away again. When I told my self I can’t figure it, I’m letting go of it for today, I felt better and I’m doing okay now just telling myself whatever, I can’t fight no more today
I used to sit all day and ponder existential questions and if I was schizophrenic. I decided to focus more on my activities and just let the questions be there. The questions that OCD latches onto aren’t real questions, and there are no real answers. I like to do something meaningful to me - play video games, color, research something interesting, focus on a subject, text / snap a friend, or something that contributes to my life being more meaningful.
I need tips on how to really accept the uncertainty the ocd causes, even if it feels so bad like I might get in trouble for something , do I wanna be okay with that?
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
I hope everyone is holding up okay! I’ve been seeing a lot of scared posts and whatnot lately, so I just wanted to make this post to remind ourselves to practice our uncertainty! I want to share a few response prevention lines that help me calm down! My thoughts do not define who I am. Maybe I’m a bad person, maybe I’m not, but I have a lot of things I need to do now. I’m going to practice not knowing for sure. I don’t have to solve this problem. I am choosing to sit with this uncomfortableness!
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