If anyone can relate to this it would be greatly appreciated.. I’ve been struggling with the same “image” for months of me on a child, humping/sexually abusing it. I would never ever hurt a child- I work with kids and I love them and when I’m around them the thoughts aren’t so bad cause I am now able to dismiss them it’s just this image.. the reason why I am struggling so much is because I’m sexual and I get intrusive feelings that I might like it and stuff. As a child I used to sexually explore even by once humping my baby doll. I don’t know if im just messed up but i don’t know what to do anymore these thoughts have stolen nearly 5 months of my life and I want to go back to normal..

It is just your thought! You have millions of them a day and naturally you just dismiss them. Just because this thought seemed to you at the moment very scary - you memorised it and tried to analyze it. You cant analyze something that is not real. I try and imagine that my unwanted thoughts are pop up adds on the computer. You never read them right? Or if you do it is always something ridiculous. You just close them and go on doing what you did. ?

If you were actually a peado you wouldn’t be scared of being one, everything we have ocd about are things that are meaningful to us. For eg. I have ROCD because I value relationships, you probably just really love kids and don’t want to ever hurt them so you get intrusive thoughts about hurting them. Just let them pass, they are absolutely meaningless x

Thank you.

It s OCD...trust me ?

I’m trying to but I can’t accept them because it feels like it means something..

It sometimes feels like I want it but I know in reality i would never.

You dont want it! TRUST ME. Stop thinking that you will like it. When you actualy want to do something it will make you feel happy! Imagine maybe that you want to hug a child. Does it make you feel happy? If yes, then thats what you actuallu want to do.

Same here I’m really sexual so when I see anything sexually explicit I’ll have some kind of feeling telling me I liked it. That’s how my POCD started when I ran into a drawing of a child being abused. I got the thought that I liked seeing the child being abused and that I got off to it. I’m still somewhat convinced I enjoyed it but I’m denying it because my morals tell me it’s wrong.

It’s really hard.. I have such twisted thoughts and I know that I will never act on these things.. I wish I never sexually explored as a child now.

Me neither I’m 18 now but I started viewing sexually explicit pictures and videos as early as the age of ten til now and I think that had a huge negative impact on me

I’m 18 too. I remember seeing sexual music videos that my brother used to watch. I know it’s normal for a child to sexually explore but I just don’t feel normal at all.

It's OCD, hmm, sometimes OCD can latch onto different life events convincing you you that so and so happened... But if you take a step back you will see it's more than that. Try saying what else happened there?

moe5 what do you mean?

You brought up a case of as a child you may of .....

But I did I sexually explored I humped my baby doll and other objects I remember it

What you experienced was probably an agression / irge in addition to the obssesion

Google OCD & testing emotions

What do you mean ?

Trying to analyze/compare / rationalize and so on will never end

But what did you mean by an aggression/urge in addition to the obsession

I'm having the thought that I have found that kid attractive . Now I'm wondering if the urge/sensation/ meant that happened back than means that today I'm at risk that i may lose control and ...

And what if it's not ocd?

So you’re saying my past sexual exploration is tieing into this image

Looking into your past to analyze/ try figuring it out won't necessarily help you. Now even though it may of feel real it doesn't mean it's real

Thank you. I’m just scared that it’s not ocd I haven’t even been diagnosed. I never had these thoughts before; it started off as thoughts of what if I like my sister then started latching onto specific family members

And now this