Sometimes I don’t feel all the anxiety anyone and then I think I don’t care. Then I’m worried that I might not care and if that means something. Then I have a thought and it doesn’t completely gross me out and then I’m like what does that mean? Like I don’t want it but it doesn’t bother me... Then I question if I really have OCD/HOCD or if I somehow made the whole thing up? I just took the same HOCD quiz twice just to make sure I didn’t lie and that it still said it’s a high chance I have it. Anybody?

Honestly, thank you so much! It just freaks me out. It’s like why do I feel okay when I should be in more emotional turmoil, that should mean something...if that makes sense? I take Zoloft and it’s been about 2 weeks since I upped my dose so I do wonder if that is making everything easier and then I question what if that’s not why, and it’s easier because I actually am gay...? It sucks!

All these thoughts/symptoms only started 2ish months ago and I’m 29 so it makes me question if it really is OCD? Like why didn’t it start earlier and why now? Is this because I really am gay? I also had the thought that what would my grandpa think if I turned out to be gay and that freaked me out because that seems more like a denial thought and now I’m lost.

Help!

How have you coped with it?

Yeah I’ve actually started seeing a therapist but haven’t started ERP yet. I’m scared because what if the triggers don’t trigger me as they should and it doesn’t work? Does that mean it’s not a problem and I really am gay? It’s always the “what if’s” with me. I also saw a video where a psychologist said to thank your brain for thinking and move on, so I’ve been trying to do that as well and I think it might be helping a bit. Then yesterday I got the Mindfulness workbook for OCD and am going to tackle that too. Do you have a partner? I worry about my relationship because of all this. I question it constantly and am so worried how this is affecting him. Have any advice to that side of things?

Thank you! I definitely feel like mine was acute onset but then thinking back I can recognize thoughts I’ve had and things I’ve done but they never really caused me much distress. But now all of a sudden, they do. Thanks for the reminder to be kind to myself. I needed that.

Ohh I never thought about that....cause it does make me feel better.

Oh gosh! You are absolutely right!

No I actually think you’re probably right, it isn’t helping if it’s making me feel better.

I like this app for that reason, that others can confirm I’m not the only one with these thoughts/feelings. But I question if that’s a compulsion that is actually making it worse....

Right. Now to figure out if it is for me

Here’s some information about OCD and Age. It can start out of the blue at age 29. Take baby steps and be kind to yourself. Onset after age 35 years is unusual Males have an earlier age at onset than females Onset of symptoms is typically gradual. Acute onset has also been reported.

Oh really? You think telling him my thoughts is feeding the OCD?

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Why do you say that?