Username: xlm17

Date posted: 2y ago

morbid intrusive thoughts

hello! I am struggling right now because my intrusive thoughts haven’t been bad in almost a year, then out of nowhere things are getting awful. I’ve had them my whole life but it feels like my brain is attacking me with the most disgusting and weird things I could possibly think of. I’m not worried I will act on them but I’m more just freaked out that my mind is capable of coming up with these things and it makes me question who I am as a person. I’ve been to the ER twice this week with suicidal thoughts, I can’t do SSRI treatment because I have sensitive serotonin receptors and they always really mess me up. I feel like a freak right now and I just don’t know how to cope.

Username: vmurso22vmurso22

Date posted: 2y ago

I feel you on this, I’m wondering myself how to deal and cope

Username: AnxiousmindsthinkalikeAnxiousminds...

Date posted: 2y ago

You know that expression, “don’t think of a pink elephant” what do you think of? When I feel like my intrusive thoughts are so disturbing, discusting, immoral l, etc just remember that intrusive thoughts set no boundaries. Your mind is really capable of thinking anything and when you are anxious it will go from one thought, to another and another over and over again. I notice that when this happens I almost feel compelled to think worse and worse. Always remember they are just thoughts that are sticking because you are giving them so much power

Username: xlm17xlm17

Date posted: 2y ago

how do I stop giving them power?

Username: AnxiousmindsthinkalikeAnxiousminds...

Date posted: 2y ago

@xlm17 I am new to all of this and just started erp therapy myself. What has helped me the most is telling myself these are just thoughts and the reason they are causing you so much stress is because they are truly unwanted. What I have taken from therapy thus far is to accept the thought, don’t try to push it away. Accept it for what it is and sit with the uncertainty of the thought.

Username: xlm17xlm17

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike thank you, going to try this

Username: AnxiousmindsthinkalikeAnxiousminds...

Date posted: 2y ago

@xlm17 Try to think of it like who cares if these thoughts are in my mind all day, let them come in and try not to analyze why they are there. Let them say whatever they want, let them put images of whatever they want in your head. The human mind is capable of thinking about the most terrible and gruesome thoughts, that doesn’t mean we want to think of them! After the anxiety is released from the thoughts they will lose their power and no longer run your life

Username: Andrea BallAndrea Ball

Date posted: 2y ago

@xlm17 I recently just started telling them “yeah I most certainly am going to do that” or “yeah maybe I will maybe I won’t” it neutralizes them almost? And it’s kind of funny if you give them some sass. Like *insert harm Intrusive thought about loved one* “yup that is definitely what I’m going to do. In fact, I’ve already done it”

Username: AnxiousmindsthinkalikeAnxiousminds...

Date posted: 2y ago

@Andrea Ball I do the same thing. I try to almost make a joke out of the worst situation imaginable but hey it works!

Username: Andrea BallAndrea Ball

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike I just started implementing this so I’m still not 100% great at it!! So on bad days it’s super hard for me to find the funniness in it, but humor is the best therapy sometimes

Username: AnxiousmindsthinkalikeAnxiousminds...

Date posted: 2y ago

@Andrea Ball On bad days it’s hard to find any type of rationality truthfully. It’s weird because on the better days I am fully able to understand that the thoughts are ridiculous but on bad days I just want to cry because of them.

Username: Andrea BallAndrea Ball

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike Today I even had a switch like that within like minutes, one minute I was crying about the thoughts then the next I was like “they literally are just intrusive thoughts”

Username: xlm17xlm17

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike you’re absolutely right :)

Username: AnxiousmindsthinkalikeAnxiousminds...

Date posted: 2y ago

@Andrea Ball Me too… one minute I was totally freaking out and felt sick to my stomach, the next I was like common girl you know what you’re doing . It’s exhausting but we got this!

Username: Andrea BallAndrea Ball

Date posted: 2y ago

I had my last bad OCD attack two years ago, and out of no where after a really bad night out drinking and waking up with hangover anxiety—it triggered it back and it’s been back with a vegence. I think working with a therapist is super helpful (doing it alone is so much more isolating and disheartening), or finding support groups like this one and doing therapy workbooks or working through workbooks written by OCD specialists is a good way to start recovery.

Username: Fs144

Date posted: 1y ago

Intrusive thoughts

This is really disgusting to even talk about but I been dealing with intrusive sexual thoughts and I get triggered for everything so I avoid the news and all that but my bf was telling me this disturbing story about how someone did something sexual to a dead body and I got an intrusive image of me doing doing that and I always avoid anything bad in the news because of that and I feel so disgusted then it kept getting worse and I got an intrusive thoughts of my bf dead body and I was like wtf why would I get an image of that then my mind started bringing up family member that past away and I’m scared of getting more intrusive thoughts I’m so scared I think something is wrong with me why I’m I thinking like I love my family and bf why I’m I having these disgusting and disturbing thoughts of them or anyone it keeps getting worse I would never even wanna do that or think of that please help

Username: geminileo

Date posted: 1y ago

Increase in Intrusive Thoughts

I have had a huge increase in Intrusive Thoughts this week. It’s making things super difficult for me, I am on my period but I also think I’m having more intrusive thoughts recently because things are going well for me right now. I just keep waiting for everything to fall apart because my mind makes me believe that I don’t deserve more than one good thing at a time. My mind is in constant fight or flight mode. I cannot stop thinking about every past mistake or how someone may have thought I had bad or malicious intentions when I didn’t. I keep thinking I’m going to get in trouble for something and go to jail, I’m especially scared about work and messing up someone’s check out and getting fired or arrested. I hate feeling this way, there is just so much going on in my head and I’m terrified and stressed all the time.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 21w ago

Nonstop intrusive thoughts

Hello, it’s been some time since I’ve been on this platform but I’m not sure where else I feel safe to talk about this. Every minute of every day, I have the most horrible intrusive thoughts imaginable and I am constantly disturbed and horrified with both these thoughts and myself. I understand that these thoughts don’t define who we are, but it constantly raises the moral questions of if my brain is capable of conjuring these thoughts, even if involuntarily, then what does that say about who I am. The only solace I have is that I’m always disgusted with these thoughts but I’m constantly afraid of being some kind of monster because I have these thoughts and I feel like a terrible person for having these intrusive thoughts. I am in therapy and on medication, but neither are making this any easier, at least not yet. I don’t intend on stopping either nor have I felt any urge to actually carry out these thoughts, but they haunt me every minute of every day and I can’t stop them.

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