Intrusive thoughts of “your thinking about guys bodyparts” when I’m clearly thinking of girls and how beautiful they are… and I saw a triggering thing of a girl coming out and I had this feeling in my stomach… and as I was “m” I was trying to picture what me and this girl did weeks ago but it was giving me intrusive thoughts about how I was thinking of doing stuff with a guy… 😞😞😞
I’ve been thru this before, I’m a dude but I use to hang around my guy friends and all of a sudden I’d get those intrusive thoughts like “you think he’s cute and you kee laughing at his jokes you might like him” and I felt disgusted and would be acting quite sus. It’s a tough thing to go through man but there’s hope. I didn’t get help, this app wasn’t around and I had to do it by myself, I kinda gave up fighting it one day I said I can’t do this for the rest of my life if I’m gay I’m gay I just won’t act on it now and it hurt bad but It didn’t take long after that to realize I was fooled the whole time. I dropped out of school and went to work and the distraction saved me but please don’t do it that way, get the help and do it right because ocd will come back and I’ve had so many different topics since then and struggled hard, until now. I’m developing the tools you need to get they ocd episodes. Sexual orientation had me locked for a long time but you can make it thru. Now I joke about it like its nothing, when in that time I felt as if I was going to die. Hopefully this isn’t reassurance but some hope
It definitely can come back as this has happened to me before and dealing with it now and I’m in your boat where I’ve just said maybe I’m gay and it just donst sit right or feel right to me at all
@Mathias Yea it didn’t like work right away, I had to say If I’m gay, I’m gay and I mean it hurt literally my heart hurt and it didn’t sit right but I would just do it little by little and eventually you know the intrusive thought would come up and I would be like whatever man, and the anxiety started to go down a lot and then eventually the thoughts became less frequent and I was able to go about my day with less anxiety and less worry because so wasn’t so stuck on the those thoughts
@Imtrigad0529 Yea definitely not easy to do especially being married and everything. What are you dealing with now ?
@Mathias Definitely, I was in a relationship with someone I spent years with before, during and after but it will get better, I’m dealing with some false memory at the moment but I have come a long way with this one to. Kinda in the end phase of It I feel, it’s really only in the mornings I feel the worst
@Mathias To be quite honest it feels like a bunch of ocd themes at once 😭😭 so I’m just dealing with ocd man that’s all it is at the end of the day
@Imtrigad0529 Ima there with ya I’ve always suffered with health ocd and always just trying to please everyone I guess . And I’ve delt with so ocd and it fazed out and didn’t bother me anymore but I got a random trigger and here I am now . Funny how it works but also good to hear I’m not the only one
@Mathias No seriously man I use to deal with the same thing, I always thought I was going to get sick from something and not just a cold or flu but like cancer. But yea it would faze out and I’d live my life but always man there’s was something
@Imtrigad0529 100% when you tell people who don’t deal with it they don’t understand. My wife has a understanding but donsnt fully know .
@Mathias Yupp. I’m afraid to tell my friends, like No body knows what I have to go thru other than my girlfriend and it’s the same way like she has an understanding but she won’t quite get it and that’s fine. It’s just been in my head all my life and now that I have a therapist that understands that’s all that matters. The sad thing is that there’s people who will never tell a soul because of how dark the thoughts can get and that’s just the sad truth about it all. When I was little kid I was afraid I was going to hell or was possessed and would feel the feeling of doom and all kinds of crap, and it’d go away and come back and I never understood until about high school that it’s all in my head
Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.
hey, so i’ve had these insane thoughts about like, this dude. and i assumed it’s intrusive feelings, but it also has happened w the fact o think i like girls? but i don’t? like, i get the gronal response, and everything, and like, it sometimes feels like i actually like them, but it always makes me sick? same way w the false attraction guy, and it even started happening w my bsf of like 9 years? and it’ll tell me the most insane things like “maybe u are attracted” “maybe if u got w them the thoughts will stop” someone please help.
straight girl suffering from hocd, okay so when i was younger i looked at like a girl corn star insta for like 2 weeks and like did get aroused by it, didn’t think much of it still fancied boys, girls were like ew no to me, but its triggering my hocd so badly, like is it normal that i could look at a sexy pic of a girl n get aroused by it, but like a shirtless pic of a boy i wouldn’t, however i have insane attraction to men irl, i love my boyfriend, i love the idea of being with a man and hate the idea of being with a woman, this really freaking me out!
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