Im falling apart, it feels like the shell is breaking down and my real self is coming out. I feel like im having cognitive dissonance, believing Im a straight man my whole life and now realizing im neither and complete opposite of who I thought I was and projected myself as, cognitive dissonance causes stress I know that much but the depression is so amplified these days, i cant cope. It feels like I already know these things to be true deep down and just unable to comprehend that it is happening. Im suffocating so much.