Am I in love??? Or am I??

Hey there! New here! Going to refrain from needing confirmation and validity that I actually love my partner and I’m not just with them because they’re nice to me or meet my valued needs and we have great sex but I actually LOVE them. What is love anyway??? If this person loves me through it all but I can barely handle standing to be with them when they get angry. “They’re toxic… we must break up” “they play video games… we must break up” “they love me so there must be something wrong with them… we must break up” I fucking hate my brain. I just want to love them and have them love me and not make life more difficult than it already is…. But here we are. Can anyone relate? Does it get better?