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oh and also, a huge part of the cure to get rid of it is to correct your self image. she did that a lot with me too, and that was basically what did the most. if yoy have crappy self esteem, your anxiety levels rise a lot. its like the mouse and the lion. a mouse is very low on the food chain, knows its small and is in danger and therefore, its heart beats faster and its always on the look out. a lion knows it has no natural predators, and therefore you’ll see lions just sunbathing on the savannah. but if us people with ocd see ourselves as mice when we’re lions, it makes sense we’re so scared
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- 6y
literally. but its hard with all the uncertainty. like i dont want to be a freak or a murderer. i dont want the "snapping scenario". i want my old life back. and whats even worse is that ocd tries to convince you that you enjoy that shit. like are you fucking kidding my life is being destroyed by this. no i dont fucking like these thoughts. FUCK OCD. EXPOSE YOURSELF TO YOUR FEARS. IF WE WERE ALL WHAT OUR OCD TELLS US WE ARE WE SHOULDVE KNOWN BY KNOW INSTEAD OF CONSTANTLY LOOKING FOR PROOF
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- 6y
its actually totally true! i used to go to metacognitivetherapy, and back then i kind of thought i was goingthere because i had overthinking problems (i did also) but in reality it was still some kind og obsessive overthinkinh/ruminating in the pure-o sense, and i never once realised that what i felt there was also anxiety (i only thought my extreme panic attacks counted as anxiety) and basically, my therapist used different methods to trick me into not doing shit or thinking about it. literally, the essence of metacognitive therapy is “just dont think about it” like the bad advice your friends without anxiety give you. but damn, its true. and i never realised that it was what she did to me. basically, she just gradually taught me not to think about the stuff i did, and so my problems were gone!
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- 6y
metacognitive therapy is like a two year education i think, so it takes a specialist yeah
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but fixinh your self esteem doesnt always require a therapist
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you can start out by questioning the beliefs you have about yourself
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Ugh @anna banana I always had a feeling that fixing my self-esteem would help things. I just really do not know how. I guess that’s what a therapist is for. Are there specific ones that practice metacognitive therapy? Like CBT specialists or?
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- 25w
I’ve noticed that I’m somewhat happier also ignoring my thoughts than I am instead of doing compulsions (I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired atp) but I’ve heard you’re technically supposed to do erp rather than pushing under the rug. But idk if I have a thought I just refuse to think about it again and im fine even if I want to do compulsions
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- 23w
Looking back, I realize I’ve had OCD since I was 7. though I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 30. As a kid, I was consumed by fears I couldn’t explain: "What if God isn’t real? What happens when we die? How do I know I’m real?" These existential thoughts terrified me, and while everyone has them from time to time, I felt like they were consuming my life. By 12, I was having daily panic attacks about death and war, feeling untethered from reality as depersonalization and derealization set in. At 15, I turned to drinking, spending the next 15 years drunk, trying to escape my mind. I hated myself, struggled with my body, and my intrusive thoughts. Sobriety forced me to face it all head-on. In May 2022, I finally learned I had OCD. I remember the exact date: May 10th. Reading about it, I thought, "Oh my God, this is it. This explains everything." My main themes were existential OCD and self-harm intrusive thoughts. The self-harm fears were the hardest: "What if I kill myself? What if I lose control?" These thoughts terrified me because I didn’t want to die. ERP changed everything. At first, I thought, "You want me to confront my worst fears? Are you kidding me?" But ERP is gradual and done at your pace. My therapist taught me to lean into uncertainty instead of fighting it. She’d say, "Maybe you’ll kill yourself—who knows?" At first, it felt scary, but for OCD, it was freeing. Slowly, I realized my thoughts were just thoughts. ERP gave me my life back. I’m working again, I’m sober, and for the first time, I can imagine a future. If you’re scared to try ERP, I get it. But if you’re already living in fear, why not try a set of tools that can give you hope?
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- 21w
I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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