I don’t know my head is so muddled up at the minute I don’t know if I like other people of the same sex my head is just telling me I am gay and in denial all the time I was never like this in the past tho I just can’t get my head around I have prayed to god but I am still stuck with this ocd demon

Mathias

Date posted: 3y

Have you tired any therapy or epr

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 3y

I haven’t try ERP I have tried cbt though but I didn’t really work

Mathias

Date posted: 3y

I say give it a go you want be worried about certain things and the anxiety goes down . You can kinda get forward with your life with just starting . Not easy and nobody wants to sit through it but what else do you have to try ?

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 3y

I just feel like at this point am just gay I have no proof though never had this mind set in the past at all it sucks so bad man I want my life back so bad

Mathias

Date posted: 3y

Until you expose yourself to it and accept the thoughts your gonna be stuck . Accepting the thoughts dosnt mean you are . You’ve can believe something so much to where you start to believe you are . I thought at one time I was gonna die every day and i told myself I was sick . So I started to believe it and my mind made me feel sick . Go to the dr and they tell me nothings wrong but I still didn’t believe them . Ocd and anxiety works like that . Not giving any reassurance just trying to give some insight

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 3y

Thanks man I really appreciate it the mind is such a powerful thing though my fear is I don’t want to go that way end my relationship and my kids don’t have a dad there I feel so bad when I am around my partner numb and like in my head am I leading her on I honestly hate this so much 😥 I rather not be alive then living in this night mare

Mathias

Date posted: 3y

I feel you bro I’m married two boys , and feel the exact same way . I had to tell my wife because I had no one else to talk to. She understands it’s not the first time this has happened. I have days where I feel great and I’m living and the thought will pop up and I’m down but erp has definitely made it easier on me some . I’ve tried to just brush it off and live my life and that helps sometimes but the thoughts are there . Past three days have been though

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 3y

Yeah mine is there every day man it sucks my girl is finding it very hard man is your okay with the whole thing I would do any thing to get old me back when I tried to kiss her she was like I don’t know and says it hard when You think Your are gay and my heart just sank I felt like I needed to tell Her am gay and in my head it would all stop but I don’t think it is that at all my mind has this ocd I think spider spinning loads of different webs to were noting is clear anymore

Mathias

Date posted: 3y

Yea my wife is ok with it . She tells me to take my time and get better . I still question tho how she can deal with but she knows how I am with anxiety and stuff . I thought about just telling her and the kids hey I’m just gay and thinking that would make it all go away and I’ll come out and I’ll never feel this way again but I sit back analyze it and I’m like that sounds ridiculous. So I’m supposed to drop my whole marriage and go be with somebody I don’t want to be with ? Like why do I deal with this and why is it such a big deal to me . It’s hard

kyle g tucker

Date posted: 3y

I know I fully understand where you are coming from it doesn’t make any sense to drop your family for stupid thoughts although they feel so real but I guess it wouldn’t be ocd if if didn’t feel real

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