Healing Share Time

Just want to say I think my favorite part of this healing journey is when I now feel my body/mind going off base (you know that extra spider sense for anxiety) and the anxiety comes on strong….I REALLY love telling that brat she can hang around if she wants but she is accompanying ME for the day I will NOT be accompanying her! I’m really proud of myself as stress is a huge trigger for me and Easter Sunday is the anniversary of my initial PTSD inducing event (won’t elaborate to help minimize others triggers)✌🏽🌻. Also watched two episodes of Criminal Minds and I’m fine. Shut the ruminating down immediately. Also watched Batman and I’m fine. I am a conqueror of Harm/self harm OCD and Existential/Religious OCD which are my top two among many other changing OCD themes.

sweetsunflower

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

thank you for sharing this. you just gave me sooooo much hope 💗 i’m currently in that stage where i spent all day hiking with a good friend, biking to the beach and watching the sunset and i was so in my head with my OCD, i missed out on so much beauty. your story inspires a lot of hope especially since i suffer from harm ocd too. thank you thank you 🙏 here’s to continuing to heal 💗

Wildflower76

Date posted: 3y

It really gets better if you put the work in. I think my biggest realization has been I’ve quit worrying about if I’m going to deal with OCD/anxiety today or not. If it’s there it’s there and if it’s not it’s not. Just learning to ride the wave instead of constantly trying to keep my head above water has been a huge game changer. I am choosing to still go about my day regardless of the OCD. Life is too dang short to be honest and OCD has robbed enough of my joy. It’s about time to Rob her of her antics ☺️

Wildflower76

Date posted: 3y

Also give yourself credit because you STILL went. You still probably had a lot of wonderful moments today and those are the things you focus on not what you might of missed.

sweetsunflower

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

@Wildflower76 thank you for that 💗 it’s tough but i’m just trying to be patient with my progress and meet myself we’re i’m at. putting the work in for me now is simply getting out of bed and going like you said, something i couldn’t do a month ago. starting ERP therapy and meds too so i’m really hopeful that i’ll continue to get better 💗💗💗 thank you so much for your response, encouragement and sharing your story. it means a lot to know we’re not alone on this journey. 💗

Ari925

Date posted: 3y

Hey I’m proud of you too! I feel like I can do what you described most of the time. But I recent lost my job and I just feel like all the thoughts and feelings are getting me down. And it’s Like I know I don’t have to believe them but I feel like I’m questioning myself now like maybe I want them? And that really gets me down. I have self harm ocd and I’ll also say I’m having my period right now. But yea it’s really hard to shake the thoughts and feelings that what if I actually feel that way now? And I’ve done ERP so the anxiety doesn’t come up the same and now it’s liek having anxiety about not having anxiety or not caring about the thoughts and feelings and wondering if I need to do something else? It’s really scary I don’t want to hurt myself or like the thoughts and feelings that come up but it like makes me question if I want them! And it gets me down! Ugh!!! Any suggestions on how to deal with this ?

Wildflower76

Date posted: 3y

Just resort back to ERP and treat it the same as you always have. You’ve identified a few triggers so I would say typically and increased response of OCD is likely. Just sit theough it even though it sucks. I know it’s hard but you’ve worked through this before. Focus on the little victories each day. You’ve got this!

sidneyrae7

Date posted: 3y

If I may ask, what has helped you heal? Medication, exposure therapy, etc?

Wildflower76

Date posted: 3y

ERP was the cherry on top for me. I have taken a very low dose of medicine for a long time and it does help but it doesn’t make it go away. I believe the combination of ERP, medicine, a strong support system and most importantly the work I have put in is what has and will always be needed to continue to heal.

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