I’m back in therapy but I haven’t told my therapist about the Pedophila side of it. I just feel so guilty about it and I’m worried she won’t understand or might judge me. I’m scared to be honest.

I just like to have everyone know there not alone. I've had so much subtypes of ocd I was a mess I didn't ever think I was gonna be able to get better. But I did and all you really gotta do is ask for help and be honest.

This has been one of my biggest fears, but I’ve never started therapy in the first place. I can’t say much of help because of that but I imagine she’d at least not judge you for it. As a therapist, she’s probably seen/heard a lot, including actual pedophiles. Idk, just a thought! Sorry

If you don't be honest with your therapist an tell her the true problem. She won't be able to help you. I was in the same situation as you I was scared embarrassed had guilt. But once you open up an tell her you'll get the weight off your shoulders an she will be able to help you with your true problem. Believe me I'm in a way better place ever since I was honest with my therapist and phyctrist.

Sounds like me, I just continue telling my therapist I'm all fine even though I'm not. Scared what he's gonna think about me when I tell him about my POCD etc etc.

I totally get where you are coming from. Is your therapist an OCD specialist?

I used to have the sexual intrusive thoughts stuff, and let me just tell you that it isSOOO common in OCD that therapists know to look for it. Like, my therapist flat out asked me if that was one of my worries, so while I get the fear, please know that they are trained not to judge