- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Sex ocd
I overthink during sex and I can’t tell if its ocd or im gay. Im getting married and im so scared..what if i cannot satisfy her? What if i find out im gay?? Im horrified
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
These types of things may seem so scary. I recommend accepting what it is that you’re going through. Not necessarily agreeing with the thoughts, but recognizing that they’re there. OCD is known as the doubting disorder. The first time I had SO-OCD was when I was 21; I was dating a girl and I had ROCD which lead into the SO-OCD. We broke up, my attraction to women came back even stronger. That success lasted for about 6 years. I’m 29 now, I have a girlfriend I love, now it’s happening again. I had ROCD with her for a year, now it transformed into SO-OCD. The best way to beat this, is to surrender to it.
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Hi! I understand, I’m going through the same thing. You’re over attending to what you’re feeling right now. Also, keep in mind, no one, with any certainty, understands their sexuality 100%. Anyone, at any time, can fall in love with someone of the same gender at any given moment. Try your best to not overthink. I am going through the same exact thing. Intimacy is built upon way more than sex. Sex is 90% of a bad relationship, 10% of a great one.
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I know what you’re going through. I got married in October and was having the same thoughts. It’s like not only do you feel bad about the OCD and the thoughts but you feel so guilty for having those thoughts during that time. My biggest fear is waking up one day and realizing that I was gay my whole life and then having to leave my husband. When I told my therapist about it she said your OCD will attack your core values and I found some solace in that because it just shows one of my core values is being loyal to my relationship. I know it’s so hard, but if it’s giving you the most intense anxiety you’ve ever felt in your life and it’s all you think and ruminate about, it’s probably just OCD. Unfortunately, you have to retrain your brain to not react to those thoughts and accept uncertainty. My husband knows all about my SO-OCD and he loves me regardless. We got married and it was the best day of my life!!
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Thanks. I am so sad about this and knowing im not alone makes me feel better
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y ago
So just hang in there, try to get some help, and things will slow down
- Username
- JB1020JB1020
- Date posted
- 2y ago
You'll be OK. Try to sit with the thoughts and anxiety and you'll de-sensitize over time. Do exposure therapy exercises and you'll improve. Remember to treat thoughts like this that come at the most inappropriate time and that cause you as anxiety as OCD thoughts from the get go. Keep them in context. Good luck.
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- Date posted
- 5y ago
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- 🫠
- Date posted
- 1y ago
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- Username
- mariamaria
- Date posted
- 34w ago
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