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- 3y
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I did - it was a combination of behaviors and being in a situation that I should of not been, I was stressed trying to fix a relationship, I was asking for reassurance and reassurance- I drove my partner mad, was it entirely my part- NO - contex: my ex partner had just come out of rehab for meth addiction and both of us going thru a mental illness was not healthy for both of us, how could I expect love- I was testing the boundaries, I wasn’t allowed to grieve and he dumped me and I had to reassure myself and chased him. He pushed me away then ran away from me when I confronted him- we didn’t have closure but I had lost myself / that is why I’m here and have a meeting, learning to recognize that you let yourself go helped me realize I’m still a alive - it’s happend - I can’t fix it, he did not understand my ocd and shouldn’t until he starts to recover from his meth addiction but I hope in the future we can reconcile and apologize for the damage and trauma we caused each other becuase of our mental illness
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Me I’m breaking up now I feel too guilty
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- NOCD Alumni
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- 3y
Yes over a year ago! He is engaged now and I’m happy for him. Looking back I didn’t really like him or think we fit well together, but my rocd just attached to the relationship because I put high value on finding someone to marry. So if I had thoughts of not liking him, my rocd would say no you actually love him, you’re crazy etc😂 or if I liked him then it would be like “break up!!!” And eventually I did. It’s impossible to see if you actually like someone when you are in an rocd episode, so my best advice is to go through treatment so you can actually know how you feel, which means accepting that you might like this person and you might not and being okay with either outcome. You won’t be able to know until you face either fear and get help.
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It’s funny my ROCD episode happend after things went wrong in our relationship- I know I still care for him but waiting for therapy - there are sometimes I expect a call - but I detached - it’s hard work but there no hard feelings after a week
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- 3y
I’ve broken up with the same person 6-7 times. Now we are together. I still struggle but I’m working on it
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