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The sex-focused world we live in
Hi… I struggle severely with ROCD. I’ve been married for 7.5 years and my husband and I have an amazing relationship. It’s one that I am extremely lucky to have because he is such a wonderful and good man. The only thing we really have ever had fights about, is my ROCD. Im afraid he will lose interest in me, or see/meet someone that he will desire more than me and he will leave me for them. I do KNOW he is not that type of man to be disloyal or step out on our family. I KNOW he loves me, but because cheating is still a possibility for any human being, no matter how perfect they may seem, I’m terrified as if it is inevitable and will happen one of these days. He has never given me a reason to think he will do this. My current issue I’m running into is sex/nudity in the media. I was raised believing R rated movies are absolutely not okay and are sinful if you watch them. He was raised believing R rated movies were fine to watch. Because of the type of OCD I have, R rated movies don’t bother me other than if it has nudity in it. I see it as being pornographic and inappropriate for people in a committed relationship to view. He says he doesn’t watch because of the nudity, but just because it is a good movie and he believes I’m being controlling and over-reactive about my desire for us to not watch anything with nudity in it. He doesn’t watch anything with nudity out of respect for me but will occasionally bring up movies/shows he wants to watch but “can’t” because it has nudity in it and it would cause me to have a panic attack. I feel like his desire to see these movies must matter more to him than my fears/feelings. Then again, nudity is EVERYWHERE nowadays and I feel there is no escaping it. So I do think it is something I need to get past and stop letting it control my life. Am I in the wrong here for having these feelings? I believe I take it to the extreme and something needs to be done about that, but I do think seeing these things is inappropriate. I fear he will compare me to other women even if they are on tv. He tells me that will never happen. I don’t know what to do to get past this horrific anxious feeling if he comes across nudity in some way. Anyone else experience this? Sorry for the novel.