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help?!
can i please talk to someone with pocd? i’m really confused and bothered i don’t know. i’m scared that i might not care about something bad.
can i please talk to someone with pocd? i’m really confused and bothered i don’t know. i’m scared that i might not care about something bad.
what’s up ?
i’m around kids a lot because i have baby brothers who do a lot of youth sports and stuff. i’ve never had a problem around kids until my ocd but now i’m scared. at first i was scared of being sexually attracted to them but now i’m scared i’ll be romantically attracted to them. what’s bothering me is that im not sure if im actually scared of being romantically attracted to them. i want to try and see and test myself to see if i am scared of being romantically attracted to them but i can’t make myself. i don’t know if it’s because i truly find it disgusting or if i don’t want to accept the reality that i just don’t care. it sounds so weird and bad im sorry if im confusing you im just so stressed i don’t know how i feel
@anonnnn This is ocd. I've gone through the same exact thing when I was first starting treatment. It's normal. Just keep doing erp
@anonnnn it’s ocd 100% i was the exact same, ocd likes to feed on things you love i know it’s hard but just remember it’s only thoughts. it’s stuff you would never ever do the fact you are worried about it is a good thing. just shows you would never do something like that
Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
I'm struggling with pocd it feels very real and I'm at a point where I feel I need to go to confess to the police stuff I know I haven't done but have false memories of doing and I feel like nobody thinks like this and very alone.
I told a few people on social media about my OCD, including POCD and how distressing it is. But everyone went quiet, then a few hours later I posted that I don’t support pedophilia at all neither do I justify it or am a pedo. Then someone replied with: “I think someone might take it bc u have such an obsessive fear of it u might have actual p3 do philic tendencies” I can’t do this anymore, I’m terrified to spiral again like a few months ago but I’m on the brink of doing it again. I’m shaking and stressing tf out I hate this so so so so so much
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