help?!

what’s up ?

i’m around kids a lot because i have baby brothers who do a lot of youth sports and stuff. i’ve never had a problem around kids until my ocd but now i’m scared. at first i was scared of being sexually attracted to them but now i’m scared i’ll be romantically attracted to them. what’s bothering me is that im not sure if im actually scared of being romantically attracted to them. i want to try and see and test myself to see if i am scared of being romantically attracted to them but i can’t make myself. i don’t know if it’s because i truly find it disgusting or if i don’t want to accept the reality that i just don’t care. it sounds so weird and bad im sorry if im confusing you im just so stressed i don’t know how i feel

@anonnnn This is ocd. I've gone through the same exact thing when I was first starting treatment. It's normal. Just keep doing erp