privatelypublic

Date posted: 3y

Intro to me

I have been on this app for a while sense probably last summer but I got rid of it a couple months ago and got it back a couple weeks ago. I've never done a full introduction so here it is. I'm Vivian and I have OCD and GAD (general anxiety) my 3 biggest subtypes are Contamination Magical thinking Harm thoughts And it is really, really hard nothing seems to help, but I'm also on the waiting list to be evaluated for Autism which is also so confusing and frustrating. In general life kind of sucks I'm 14 and I love animals, stuffed animals, American Girl dolls, reading and my switch! My favorite color is purple and my favorite food is pasta. My favorite shows are Heartland Veronica Mars Over the garden wall I also love marvel and animation shows and movies, and Harry Potter. That's basically it I think :)

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

Hey Vivian! My names Forest I’m 18 and my pronouns are they/she. I have had this app for a couple months now. I’m also neurodivergent! I’m sorry things are so bad, I realise saying sorry doesn’t change anything but I’m really hoping you get the support you need and start healing nobody deserves to feel stuck in suffering, I don’t know much about the diagnostic process for being diagnosed autistic, but whatever you feel is right for you is right, you don’t need to be diagnosed to know who you are :) . I love any colour your can find in nature especially greens and browns, my favourite food is literally anything. I also love animals and nature I also like over the garden wall, really good music A few of my hobbies are Playing minecraft Sewing Writing Making random stuff Painting I really hope things get easier, please reach out for support if you need it

privatelypublic

Date posted: 3y

My pronouns are also They/she! My Instagram account is @autieducation!

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

@BeeOnFlowers I love that!!! I was going to ask your pronouns but I realise it’s a lot to think about right now,

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

@BeeOnFlowers I don’t use intstagram myself since it’s bad for my mental health otherwise I would check it out :)

privatelypublic

Date posted: 3y

@Forest13 (They/she) It is a lot to think about but for some reason I know already? I know for sure I'm gay but I'm still trying to figure out if I'm asexual. And I'm pretty sure about my pronouns right now:)

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

@BeeOnFlowers (They/She) That’s really awesome :), it feels right to you that’s what matters your happiness is essential.

coreyd

Date posted: 3y

Hi, Vivian! You’re not alone. All of us here are struggling with the same thing. Are your parents aware and supportive of your condition?

privatelypublic

Date posted: 3y

My mom and dad are both aware. My dad I would say is not supportive and makes fun of me sometimes. My mom is very supportive but honestly doesn't understand I think she thinks it's not that bad.

coreyd

Date posted: 3y

@BeeOnFlowers (They/She) Are you getting treatment for your OCD?

privatelypublic

Date posted: 3y

@coreyd Sort of I'm on medication and I have a therapist

coreyd

Date posted: 3y

@BeeOnFlowers (They/She) That’s good to hear. I couldn’t imagine my daughter going through this.

privatelypublic

Date posted: 3y

@coreyd Yeah, it's really hard

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

@BeeOnFlowers (They/She) Hey I hope it’s oaky I replied to this as I know it’s directed to someone else, people always deserve and should have support in their mental health especially from their parent/parents/guardian I’m sorry that they don’t understand the severity and aren’t taking the steps to learn how to support you.

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

@Forest13 (They/she) I also hope that your therapist and medication is feeling right to you, if not I’d be happy to talk about it if you felt comfortable with that, otherwise finding someone in your personal life you trust to talk to about it would be a good idea.

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Date posted: 3y

@Forest13 (They/she) It's ok! My therapist is great she helps so much with the autism and is actually going to talk to my mom next week on ways to help me, but she doesn't help as much with the OCD. The medication not as much I haven't noticed anything but I think I just need the dosage to be higher

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

@BeeOnFlowers (They/She) I’m really glad she is, that’s awesome, as you are struggling so much with ocd though, it may be something to talk to them about maybe they could refer you to a specialist? Or you could work with someone from NOCD even, I realise though changing therapist would be scary. Sorry about the medication, medication is so annoying, and there is so much trial and error, talking to them about it would be great too

Forest13

Date posted: 3y

I recommend talking to a professional over me though I’m definitely not qualified

Anonymous

Date posted: 25w

A quick Vent here

I'm sry if this may make people worry or feel uncomfortable in advance! Hello everyone as u can see I struggle with ocd and I HATE IT WITH MY LIFE , it started in 2020 covid obv contamination ocd started here , I used to carry alcohol everywhere and used to wash my hands so much that it bled ( had to wear gloves to cover it so friends or family won't see it ) and everything else started since then , harm ocd with myself or friends I couldn't hold a knife..it was really hard..and I have unwanted sexual thoughts ocd , I have panic attacks bc of this..I sometimes cannot look people into their eyes and its so random and so scary..thoughts about.. 🍇..whether it's me or I'm gonna harm someone else uk..I sometimes cannot function properly.. unfortunately friends don't understand it rather think it's about " perfectionism "..I wrote those thoughts and stuff in a journal in more details ofc and doodle ( I'm scared someone will find it ) I hate myself tbh and I don't think someone will read this... I suspect I have ADHD with all this but ocd is " ur faking it " even though lots of people have hinted about it , I thought I actually killed someone for 2 years a girl..until I realized what HOCD is , I thought I faked my ocd too in fact , I have perfectionism ocd too it's bad and I HATE PURE O it's so DRAINING uk.. also idk if this has caused a problem for anyone but if y'all know the Truman show ( basically if u don't know the main character is being filmed and his life is fake and he doesn't know it ) THAT MOVIE HAS HARMED ME SO BADLY FOR YEARS that until today I have to check in the bathroom if there are cameras cuz like ocd makes me think I'm living in a fake world , I used to think people around me , everyone was like a Ai model or smth.. everytime until today I have to clean the toilet seat bc it may be dirty..I have been taking up to 5 showers a day cuz maybe I'm dirty..that's it for today tysm if u read this till the end I'd like to know ur thoughts if u got tips or have similar experiences ! 🤗 U get a chocolate bar 🍫 bc u earned it bc ik how ocd is so frustrating ( I also noticed everyone who has ocd is so nice right 😆! )

mary.94

Date posted: 24w

Hi, I’m new and wanted to make some friends w/OCD!

I’m 19 and struggle with health anxiety, contamination, harm, and magical thinking OCD and would love to meet people with similar experiences and hardships because I have never had an opportunity for such a supportive community!

Violetta329

Date posted: 23w

Hi everyone, it’s hard for me to open up to people

Hi my name is Violetta and I have OCD that prevents me from sleeping because my mind races and I think of things that I can no longer change.

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