- Username
- h56
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I use to get it where I would over think like did I touch that person wrong whilst walking past them. When I was changing my little sisters nappy I would worry I was doing it wrong so I would ask for reassurance from everyone. I use to get thoughts like maybe I did touch that child even though I knew I definitely hadn't. I wouldn't dream of it. I worry I make children feel uncomfortable because I seem anxious around them. I have other worries as well but I don't want to trigger your ocd
Yes
Yours make you feel like you have acted or want to or feel like you want?
I don't really worry if I am one cause I know I'm not and even if I was I wouldn't act on it but I know I'm not cause the thoughts make me feel uncomfortable and guilty I rarely get sexual intrusive thoughts about children. But when I do I worry about it but I think well fuck it if I am I am. But again, I know I'm not cause I would hate for pedophilia to be legal it can really fuck a child up in the head getting messed with. Added onto that I love men, I love sex the bigger the d the better lol. I know it's icd cause I've had ocd since I was three and it goes from one thing to the next but this one is by far the worst
constant groinals and intrusive thoughts. the groinal responses are so bad and strong i feel the urge to m-sturbate to make it go away. the groinals literally don’t go away and get worse unless I do that. I hate my life i feel so gross and i want to not be here anymore
Nsfw tw// a compulsion I struggle with is m-sturbation. when the groinal responses and thoughts get to bad I do that to gain some sense of relief. but sometimes I end up agreeing with the thoughts or think bad stuff while doing it just to “give in” and also “test myself” and finish so i can find some relief. but IMMEDIATELY afterwards is a sense of shame and regret of wtf did I just do? i guess doing this gives me a sense of control over whatever this is so i try to agree with it but the compulsion is so gross and so is the theme so why would i ever find relief. i honestly believe im a p in denial. my pocd has been acting up non stop for almost 2 and a half months. I feel like im going to cry
the minute I wake up it’s like a sense of impending doom. I immediately get thoughts like “ur a p, im a p, it’s inevitable, ur hiding behind an ocd mask” and it feels so real. I also get groinal responses and everything feels so real, like I AM ONE. and sometimes im too tired to even stop the thoughts so it just keeps going and my body and brain feels like it agrees and im just a p. idk what to do:(
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